She sits there
absorbed in her phone
her computer
her teenage dream.

She faces life
absorbed by pointless drama
fake friends
nothing that's permanent.

She waits restlessly
absorbed in a life
an email
and her boyfriend.

She's so sure
absorbed by uncontrolled lust
about him
she'd do anything.

She ignores feelings,
absorbed in the moment,
of truth
as she waits
     Hidden in a dusty corner
          For he who she believes
               To be prince charming.

I heard once
smell is the most powerful
trigger of emotion.
I, for one, don't
doubt it.

For two days after
seeing you,
I smelled faintly of you.
That mere fact
made me so happy.

It was as if you were there.
Enveloping me.
If not with love,
at least with something.

It's better than nothing.

Did you ever
Want to do something extraordinary?
Did you ever
Think your future was amazing?
Have you ever
Realized that's impossible?
Have you ever
Accepted the truth?

Because all I see
in my future is
an office.  If I'm lucky.
Hopefully not a cubicle.
I thought I'd do something amazing
I thought I'd make the world better
At least I thought I'd travel.
But when will I be able
to do that while I'm
paying a mortgage
buying a car
overpopulating the world.

I should be happy!  I mean,
look at my future.
A college education,
A nice house,
A car, and
2.1 children.

It may be the American Dream
But it isn't mine.

Have you ever wondered
What would happen with just a touch
Even a call, a text, an email?
Have you ever wondered
What would happen if we said
All that was on our minds?

Have you ever wondered
If the only thing holding us back
Is just ourselves?
Have you ever wondered
If the only reason we stop is fear
Why not go for it?

As I stand here in front of your door
As I sit here in front of a screen
As my fingers type out the words
My eyes search for the elusive send button.

Out of sight, out of mind.  Right?
That's funny because you're always in mine.
But I have a feeling that old adage
holds true for your mind.
I've always known you're less in love with me
Than I am with you.
I've accepted that.
But if I didn't constantly invade your life
Would you ever call me?
No.

You'd let me fade away.