Me?
Why me?
Look at me.

I write with
The plainest language
The shallowest meanings

I lack that
Special ingredient
To spice it all up

Aptitude?
Disposition?
I think I'm far from that.

****
FREAKING
*******

COFFEE
MILK
ICE CREAM
STRESS
ouch
ouch
ouch

Please
Stop
Repeating
How much a disappointment I am sometimes.
When I don't get good enough marks,
When I don't get into the board you want me to,
When I fumble in piano recitals.

Because I am,
Equally sad,
Broken,
Confused,
If not more than how anyone feels.

But I know,
It's for my good,
You hope to achieve what you couldn't yourself.

I just wish I could tell you somehow,
I'm working hard,
Very very hard,
To be the best daughter I can.

But please be patient,
I'm getting there.

The best way to
End my pain
Is to cry too much
And drown in my tears.
I can't swim,
So that'll be the last struggle
That I'll ever have.

An hour
In that little square
Can't move
Can't talk
Can't look around
Just flip through sheets of paper
Combing through each word
The power they hold
The future they shape
They sorta scare me out

Sometimes my heart
Feels too stuffed up
I wished to rip it out
From my thumping chest
And then my brain
Is fully loaded
With things that burn me
But might save grades

My faith is drawing thin
Like a thread in the wind

I hate these moments
I should be feeling happy
Instead I feel bad

Is a smile
Really a smile,
Or a face you make
To stop your tears from
Flowing
                Down
So your lips
         Up?
Curl

The day finally draws
Too close
It's tomorrow
People putting on their best armor
Ready for the battle
While I,
Face it
Without weapons
To protect
Fervently praying
Hoping those bullets
Won't pierce through me

Everyone's writing
Their ballad or villanelle
But my mind's empty

Seriously I don't get why
I** feel up and down sometimes.
Guess I should just stop to think
How lousy I am in everything.
Shall just sit here right now and sigh.

I told myself
I must do better
But I can never do better
No not anymore

I don't give a ****
About what you think of me.
You can hate me
You can love me
But I'll still be me
And I'll forever be.

please
teach me to
breathe
again

Just flimsy sheets of paper
But yet they weigh so much

You always
make sure that
I'm the
Last to reach
But the
First to leave.

Nothing is better
Than a night of good music
To forget all pains

I tell people
There're so many reasons to smile
But sadly
I can't find one right now

Sometimes
You have to be someone else
To write out
What you really feel.

I lost half the battle
How do I
Carry on

First battle
Down
But so much more
To go
Before
I'm free