Have you ever felt so low?
You know,
I feel my sadness grow.

Have you ever heard my cries?
I'm all alone,
My tears have dried.

I'm breaking down,
I'm sinking now,
Deeper
And
Deeper
I go.

I feel like I am out of sight,
Out of the light,
That once shone bright.

My heart just aches
So bad
It's sad.

When nobody seems to listen to you,
When nobody seems to smile at you,
When nobody seems to whisper and say,
How much you mean to them.

I retreat.

I repeat,
I retreat from this mess.
I'm still figuring out
How to feel much more less.

Maybe somewhere,
Some place faraway,
Somebody's waiting to hear what I say.
How great it would be if there were such a day!

But here I live,
A world so realistic,
So materialistic.
Will anyone stop
To care and share?

Everyone has their lives to lead,
My problems are their burdens,
Like unwanted ****.

Perhaps I should keep silent.
I shouldn't say a thing.
I'll let my emotions bottle up,
And then let them explode.

I wonder if I'll just be a spark,
That briefly lights up,
The sky that's dark.

At least by then,
I'm not a burden.
And nobody would notice,
That I'm gone.

I wish I might,
I wish I could,
I wish I knew how you do feel.

Sometimes I just don't understand,
I'm searching for answers like they're in the sand.
Why do you push yourself so hard,
When deep down in there,
You're just feeling blue?

Behind that beautiful smile of yours,
I see a broken heart.
A sad, solemn thought,
That you have somehow changed.

It's never your fault,
It's never your choice.
I don't know,
I really don't,
Know what you think anymore.

I'm sorry I burdened you,
I'm sorry I didn't know.
I threw you all my problems,
When you alone were down.

But still you came,
And still you forced that little smile of yours.
You told me to be joyful,
That I must be grateful,
For the things that come in life.

So same goes to you,
My dearest friend.
Be glad yourself for your own life.

This present from heaven
Comes and holds
So many wonderful things
And wacky ideas
That surprise you when you least expect.

I know that you can never be
The friend that I once knew.
I know that nothing stays
But change
And change just never stops.

Now I hope
That you can cope
And here I am for you.
I'll tide with you in the choppy seas,
We'll chase the storms away.

I know that you can never be
The friend that I once knew.
But now I'm learning to accept,
The friend I wish would come back again.