She tried to hard to be someone she was not,
it all backfired in a way,
Today's the day i speak out,
about what took her away.

She tried so hard to be something that she loved.

"Just a bit skinnier. Your mom would have loved that." Her mind whispered.

She tried to hard to be someone that she envied.

"A little more skinnier, all the girls will envy you." her mind whispered a little louder.

She tried to hard to be someone,
that just wasn't her.

"SKINNIER." Her mind now yelled.

The less she ate, the skinnier she got.

As she took her final breaths,
she slipped away to neverland...
Awaiting a peaceful death.

You don't know how long i've struggled
crying each and every night
but today's the day I redeem myself
as I sit here writing in this light

I write the last chapters of my life
and place it on this shelf
then I go to grab this kitchen knife
waiting to take my place in hell
but now it's time to wonder, who really knew me well?


So by the time you dress up in black,
my story has been found
but don't you weep young one
cause even the mighty have fell.

Smile for the lovely days,
smile for the heart breaks,
smile so hard,
you cant feel your cheeks ache.

Smile in the daytime,
cry  in your heart.

You go home, and cry in the dark.

As we lay back on the beach watching the sun go
down, we notice birds traveling towards the sunset,

"where are they going?"
my cousin asked me.

"Anywhere they want to,
they're free." I say.

As they soar over head,
I daydream about what
it would be like to have
wings.

To be free.

That's all I could ever ask for, and soon I will have it.