I don't understand how it's possible
Possible to hate everything about you
But still catch myself missing you

I told myself it was just having fun
Fun that would never lead to feelings
Until one day I caught myself wondering

I promised I'd never get attached
Attached to the thought of you
But I just can't seem to make myself forget

How could I have been so foolish?
Foolish to even think about you
And yet my mind still wanders

I wish I could change
Change the decisions I've made
But there's nothing I can do

I made myself believe
Believe in the lies I was telling
But everyone else knew
.....Everyone else knew

Sitting in darkness
The only sound I hear
Tick tock tick tock
It hurts to feel so alone...

Your words cut me like a jagged blade
How can the things you say cause so much pain
You've broken me down and made me feel shame
I'm picking up the pieces as you take them apart
But how much longer can I keep this up
There's just one thing I want you to tell me
Why are you doing this to me?
......

What can I possibly do to make you understand
That it would be so much worse
If everybody knew
I made my peace and cut all ties
Now it's your turn
I beg you, please, just let it go.

As I stare into the mirror
I wish the face staring back at me
Wasn't mine...
As I look at pictures
The face that's supposed to be me
Makes me cry...
Why can't I see beauty?
Why can't I see happiness?

I remember everything..
I remember how young I was
I remember how innocent
I remember his hands
I remember what it felt like
I remember what I was wearing
I remember crying
I remember feeling wrong
I remember feeling scared
I remember things I wish I could forget
It haunts my days
Keeps me awake at night
Why can't I just forget?
What did I do wrong?

Will I leave a mark in the world?
Will I make a difference?
What will my legacy be?