They call your name, you look up and pull on a smile
They bring you out of your reverie and are left waiting
For that second from when they ask for your interest
To when you remember what is expected
The breach between what you are feeling
And the expression on your face
Is wider and deeper than an ocean trench

I would never have left you on your own
Have left you with your thoughts and your thoughts and your thoughts
Have left you to this interminable half-life, this crippling paralysis
If you share your burden with anyone you will shatter and the shards will be fine as splinters
Too small to put back whole
I would never have chosen someone else, do you know what it's like
To cover your ears to screaming only to realise the voice is yours
And it’s all inside your head
And the comparisons spin round and round and round your unconscious
Fixated on what only serves to hurt you further
I would never have left you so repulsed by your own skin,
Left you finding your own flesh so repellent
You want to claw your way free and just cease to exist
And you scratch and you slice and you scar the surface but wake up every morning
To the realisation that you are still you and it was not a bad dream
I would never have wished this on anyone
I would never have done to you, what you so thoughtlessly did to me