As the teardrops fall from my eyes,
I contemplate on my life.
I've never been good at anything
But I fooled myself into thinking
That I was loved by you.
I wish
The first words that popped into my head
I wish that we never met
I wish that I didn't love you
I wish that I too was like
My brothers after me
Gone
Without a trace left
Except for the occasional pain and heartache.
My mother's strong
So I'm sure losing another won't be too hard
A blow.
My head, a dark place and you, the light within
The light flickers and then finally withers
You're gone.
My anxiety grows worse
Depression creeps in
Sleep no longer offers any comfort
Skimpy meals and music embrace me
Like a mother, placing my head
On her *******, caressing it slowly
Until I fall asleep.
A forbidden slumber
As my consciousness slips away,
I say a final prayer to protect my mother.