she sat in her sit like she did everyday
but today it's different
as this one person decided to sit next to her
she never been bothered by whose sitting next to her

but this one
this particular one

smells of fresh soap and burnt out cigarettes
left her on edge

because the smell felt like home to her body

it felt like him

she sleeps with disturbing thoughts in her mind

and so

she wakes up with a burden to endure

you turn the tap on
with a little bit more force
because it's been broken for months
and nobody bother to fix it

you hear the thumping sound of the water
hitting your head
not too hard
not too slow
just perfect enough
to make you feel like you are away
rather than the comfort of your bathroom

but you open your eyes
and you are instantly back to reality
all your worries and anxieties
are creeping in

thats how it all started
with you talking about other girls with me

so i guess thats how it all ended
with you wanting other girls but me

i was never sure of what i want

but you

**** you

i was so ******* sure about you