Zoe Holden

Zoe Holden Jul 2019

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bye bye mama
-losing voices

Zoe Holden Jul 2019

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something's going to hit
something's going to work
-bathroom floor pep-talks

Zoe Holden Jul 2019

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monsters lurking in beds
with welcome smiles

Zoe Holden Jul 2019

Where is the rest of me

First it was my arms
I didn't even realize what was happening
I thought this was normal
tank tops, shirts with quarter sleeves
fill with big blaring X

Then it was my back
and the fat it grew
I can fist it in my hand
But it still hangs loose

It has to consume me
I catch myself in the mirror
once, twice, forty-six
sun sets, rises, repeats
I can see my roundness now

Then my thighs
I thought I was over-weight
all consuming
If i didn't care about other's shape
why mine?
I the ugly duck in see of swan
my shorts sit in blue plastic bags in good will truck

Once I have torn everything in me apart
It is just my BDD

where did I go

#bdd

Zoe Holden Jul 2019

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She was taught to be pretty
But don't you know?
Ruby red slippers were made to hide the blood

Zoe Holden Jul 2019

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it’s ok to love yourself
it’s ok to let go of the hate
-what i wish she had known

Zoe Holden Jun 2019

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here is
   ME
one
       two
              three
me

here I STAND
feet scarred by    the    Land
by the    MAN
Begotten by the son of MAN

forgotten by    the    SON
held down by his    GUN

me who has been
      SHUN

they move    ON
they ride away at    DAWN

GONE
GONE
GONE

They who felt the   DRILL
of the ****

AND you listener can you    GUESS ?
here let me put you to the TEST.

women born without their DRESS
are still those of the        BREAST.

THIS MUST BE
                                             StReSsEd

her life was in their    HANDS
YOUR HANDS
as they dragged her to the        BADLANDS.

they are to blame
OUR CULTURE IS TO blame.

Brittany White
Muhlaysia Booker
Chynal Lindsey
these their NAME.

black trans    WOMEN

she never asked to    SWIM IN

so take my   QUOTE
it's dead bodies that   FLOAT.