Smile everyone!
Its time to have fun!
Life is great cant you see?
Look at me!
Im a child in a sweatshop working long hours for pennies at a time!
No look at me!
Im a child whos abrupt end comes like a grandfathers chime
Fighting wars in the congo
Time to say so longo!
No look at me everyone!
I swear I am not done!
My brain is ****** to hell
Empty lint and funeral bells
"Happy"
Now aint that sappy?
Shucks
This sure ******* *****

A friend once told me "love is an enigma"
And I think they were right
And that definition I wont fight
But like all enigmas
Like all puzzles
You can crack them even in a muzzle
Live long enough
Look hard enough
And it makes sense
Even in a past present or future tense
Ive made sense of it all
Or so I think
Ive certainly on the way stumbled and had a fall
But like love glowing ever pink
Ive trudged on even in disgust
For what is life is not a puzzle
And if love is also an enigma
Could nothing be better to use to konfuzzle?

****
****
******* all
This looks like a mighty far fall
But thats okay for Im no porcelain doll
Ive grown thorns and a hard shell
Im more resilient than the demons in hell
But dont you worry
For I value a great victory
Ive fought and beat my inners demons
Defeated and disgraced em
Im a new me with a new face
Not born of bows and frilly lace
But born of steel and swords of iron
This is no time to pass on
Ive much to do and so little time
**** It seems Ive forgotten how to rhyme

My ex was a *******
And that they were like no other
Born of viking blood
And I of mud
I professed true love

Hand in hand
Eye locking into eyes
But of course all those good things die

The first time was the hardest
I will not play the part of the modest
It was of my own accord
That the relationship broke off with a simple set of words

Time passed and then the second try
Never before hard have I cried
Words like acid
Sin dripping malice
A totalis

Snakes coiling my neck
A knife plunging into my peck
Betrayal of the highest order
Like cold blooded ******

My best friend and the love I had
Was all of dat

Now as I lay awake on a monday night
And sleep I try to fight
I think of a better girl I once knew

Better times and friends anew
Course thats all a simple fantasy

Thousands of miles separate us
Boundries of time and of dust

Maybe someday all could come to fruition

And my life could be the tuition

Yield to the man in Washington
Who tells you how to raise your son

Yield to the man in vatican
Who makes you return again

Yield to the man in moscow
Who makes you tend the farm now

Yield to your overlords
Your seers
And your fears

Yield to the red crow
Whos devilish face its shows

Red
Blood

Thats the two most connected
And unobstructed

I met a crow once
After a macabre magic show
He taught me things

Sorrow and fear
Life loss so near
And how the others sneer

I met a dove
And she taught me how to love

Showed me smiles
And with it happiness for miles

But the Crow ate the dove.
Chewed up entrails
And my face paled

Misery and torment
And utter abhorrent

I was given a knife
And by devil told to end my strife

Give into sin
Let me win

And I listened.
The red crow laughed

Eyes gleaming
Scheming

It laughed the blood of the red dove dripping still
A sign of a new ****

Did you know
In the winter when it snows
And when bloodstains vividly show
There is a red crow
Flying way down low

With him he carries presents
As if heaven sent
Twisted and macabre

Head of an ex
Blood of a brother
Shown like no other

In the deep dark
Where my mind is like shark
Watching
Waiting
How long can you stay?

Did you know
That I put on a show
No no not one with cams
Thats such a sham

No rather one with smiles
And all the while
You applaud my performance
I help you
Now go on shoo

But in the dark
Where I lost all and fell apart
I came across a devil in a black dress
And I made a deal
And with it a seal

Now to claim my own life
Penance for a crime by a innocent man