She told me she wanted to die
But if she were to jump into a lake She would still be holding her breath

I told her to swim to the bottom of the pool,
and once she ran out of air,
come back up,

She said no,
But what she doesn't know
is that your body forces you to come up for air,
even before you run out
You are not put on this planet to die I said

You are put here to live,
This god made you exist for a **** reason
Your job in this world is to find your purpose
And to live through the hunting season

She told me she wanted to die
But if she were to jump into a lake She would still be holding her breath

And if standing on a tall building she would say she wanted to fly
But she wouldn't take a step off just stand there and stare

Make it short and sweet,
Maybe a comical relief
Getting hit by a bus
But then her clothes would tear

I told her you don't wanna die
Just wanted it to be over
She said those were the same thing
I said maybe, but one is a forever goodbye

Go pick a 4 leaf clover
And then you'll see
That life is more than you ever thought it would turn out to be

You were my sunshine on a rainy day
But you loved rain
And still till this day
I'm not so sure why
Maybe it's because when you woke up it still was a little dark outside
And you could sleep for another half an hour
Maybe it's because you would always try and find the sun
Because you knew it was out there somewhere
You were always a little more curious then others
You knew that there was always a way
You didn't like so much when people corrected you
Or,
Tell you no,
When something didn't exactly go as planned
You always wanted to make the best out of it and wanted to be that type of person in every situation.
But you weren't
And you tried so hard to have that peaceful mindset
But It just didn't work
And maybe that's why you liked rainy days so much
Those kinda days where it rains the night before and is carried out through the whole afternoon and back into the night
It never stops to rest
And I guess neither did you
You never cared so much if you got wet outside
You didn't need an umbrella
"The rain is gods free shower"
You used to say
Everybody would laugh and call you crazy
And some days you were a little crazy
You didn't mind though
You liked the attention
Maybe that's why you liked rain
It's pitter patter that hits the roads and makes you listen a little closer
Like an old folk tale told by an old soul
Thunder and lighting scares away the little ones
But ****
Sure does make a good rainbow
That was you I think
How you would have your times of  frustration when you thought nobody could fix it or no one understood
You settled down though
Then found some good in the bad
Found your rainbow
And maybe that's why you liked the rain

For those who watch Game of   Thrones, a short man once said "You are a complication"

He loved her
But he could not keep her, for
She made things difficult for him,
"Complicated"

Hard to understand,
What people say when they don't feel like explaining so it's just,
"Complicated"

You are an abstract art piece that no one really knows where to put,
Nobody understands it but they stare and walk away,

She was a middle school rumor roaming the hallways,
Everybody knew that it was there,
But no body really knew the truth,

It was an unrequited love,
And later we found out it was another kind of love,
Another lover,

Her life was problematic from the start,
She grew up with an abusive father and fled her town,
Mother raising her to expose herself,
For her to be exploited,

That was life,
Finding your soulmate,
Seeming like you're gonna spend forever with them,
Then one day they leave for another,
All because you were a complication...

Addiction
Noun
the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity.

Addicted
Adjective
physically and mentally dependent on a particular substance,
and unable to stop taking it without incurring adverse effects.

enthusiastically devoted to a particular thing or activity.

Baby, I'm addicted to you
You are my addiction  
I need you every single day to stay alive
I need you so I don't go insane
You leave me and I go cold turkey
Breaking out into cold sweats
Not being able to move
Dying without you

Time apart is going to **** me
My insides will start to feed off of itself
My eyes will burn because I will run out of tears to douse the fire

My skin will feel like it's ripping itself apart to move closer to you

I will grow wings to migrate wherever you are

I will go deaf if I am not able to hear your voice anymore

I will lie for you
I will die for you
I would do absolutely anything to keep you alive and safe and well

You
Are my addiction
And I need you
Need you for everyday that I am breathing
Everyday that my heart is pumping
Every second that I seem to be alive

I can not let you go
Can not let you out of my system
Can not let you leave without me
Move on without me
I am coming with you
I will never leave you
For you are my addiction
For you are mine

You are a cat scratch on sunburn,

A turnt backwards fingernail from the carpet you ripped up
"When You Said No But All He Heard Was Yes",

You are a nightmare of which no one can wake up from,

You are a door slammed finger,

An open heart surgery,

No anesthetic,

A person struggling for air while they are forced head down under water,

Drowning,

FISH DO NOT DROWN!
THEY ONLY DROWN IF THERE IS NO OXYGEN IN THE WATER,
AND YOU,
ARE LEAVING ME WITHOUT ANY AIR TO BREATHE,

I AM SUFFOCATING IN MY OWN CONCOCTION THAT I MADE UP

AND I CANT GET MAD AT YOU BECAUSE I AM THE ONE THAT HIT ON YOU FIRST!

Hit On You
Not Hit
Hit Me

you're a nat flying into an eye and making it tear up

but you arnt crying?,
it's not tears of sadness,
tears because you just simply want it to be over

and once you do get the nat out, it still stings, still hurts

and at this point, you just gotta wait it out

When you know what the scale is going to say at the doctors,
so you try and push your fingers up against the wall so you're a little lighter without the doctor noticing,

Drinking more water that day and putting weights in your pockets hoping they won't check anymore,

Failing to flip on a light switch and having to walk back a couple of steps to try again,

Shoving your body into a door because you thought you opened it,

Pulling a push door,

Watching when the light goes off in the fridge,

Getting electrocuted for the first time,

Scared shitless when the **** toaster goes off and you weren't ready,

Getting into a fight with your microwave door,

Locking your keys inside your car,

Accidentally burning yourself with fire,

Ripping tape off of your leg like you're getting it waxed,

Slicing through skin with paper,

Spilling water all down your shirt,

Being ******* human,

Looking in the mirror for the first time and not liking what you see,

Not liking the number on the scale,

Having disabilities,

Disorders,

Get over it?,

Shut the **** up,

Go eat a cheeseburger?,

Shut the **** up,

Weak,

Never giving up,

Strong,

Trying,

Tried,

Being damaged,

Having baggage,

Wanting people to understand you are not perfect,

Realizing everybody is fighting with themselves at some point,

Fighting their own battles,

Keeping secrets from everyone else,

keeping quiet,
because talking is not permitted and so forth forbidden...

The first rule you learn when you live in a glass house is don't throw stones,
The second is don't walk around naked,
You have neighbors,

When you live in a glass house you're mindset will morf into it,
You are so used to being open when everyone can see you and hear you that you praise the times when people can't see into your brain,
All the thoughts you have,
what you really wanna share with people but to afraid that your idea might get shut down,
But they don't have to know you have thoughts or judgements or opinions because they can't see through your mind, only your house
And you take this for granted