Do you ever just gaze at a star, thinking

"I'd like to keep it this way"

I think I'm getting rusted
Ate too much now bloated
drowning in my own
fears that control me
they **** me slowly
like radioactive homes
I can't forget your words
wish i could try to lie
my tongue is paralyzed
my mind wanting to die

There are a thousand words I want to say,
yet my tongue is tied
my voice locked inside,
All i can do is cry,
wishing i was alright

I can't breath,
My hands on my chest,
My eyes burning red
Slowly blurring to death,
I can't breath,
I feel like I'm drowning
my fingers are shaking
my vision i'm losing,
i can't breath

"Don't leave me alone,
I cannot live without you.
What will nights be without your voice, my love?
What will days be without your silly talks, my love?"
She said to herself as her mind started to drift,
and her soul left it's shell

Sometimes I think about the things I do,
Practice my smile, try to look cool
Yet what is this feeling
It sinks in and sinks in deep
Tearing apart my smile
The moment it sinks

The sky was dim on that summer day
The clouds looked sad yet the sun was gay
Hiding behind the gloomy walls
Building up a fortress of pain
Then  rain poured; the villagers rejoiced
The sun turned sad, his mood turned sour
He left the village, he went far
Away from the people that loved his pain,
Thunderstorms came, the children then wept
No more sunny days
No more light rays