An obsessive need, always filled but never met. A possessive greed, leading to unforgettable regrets.
Clinging way too tightly, never letting any slack. Squeezing ever so mightily, until I hear her crack.
Stealing ever breath with a smothering presence that cannot be escaped. Filling every though with evident dismay, that's always there but never explained. Not becuase I wont... but becuase I cant so unfortunately this is no confession, just another rant.

I know that you dont need me, as much as I want you. But if you'll only take a moment, you'll see my feelings true. something about the way I fell, the first time I saw your face. and every time after, just makes my heart race. I crave to hold you close, to hold your hand in mine. to let our eyes stay in lock, and know that all is fine. this life of chaos has left me, with little to hold on. but with your love around me, I know that I'll be strong. let me stand beside you, proud & strong & tall. as the man behind you, I'd never let you fall. And if by chance you did go down, I'd fall right along, so we could lay there on the ground, & listen to your favorite song. the songs that help you stand again, youd have my hand and all else I could lend. As the man at your side, youd now have my soul. and to spend the rest of my life convincing you, well that's my truest goal.

Searching for Connection, with nothing to be found. faces in their screens with their eyes always looking down. dare not share a shiver, cannot shed a tear. yet it always feels better whenever someone else is near.
just an empty vessel of the lives I've tried to live, and this upright golden pedestal that carries all I have to give.
so I keep on searching for the connection that I scarcely ever find, in all hopes I may one day see a heart thats just like mine.

Nothing left to live for,
There's no one left to cry. I wish that I'd given more, but now I want to die.

Wrestling with these demons, that run havoc in my chest. Oh the struggle to defeat them, and lay them all to rest.

But the demons are within me, tis I that gives them life. As long as Im the one to breath, tis quit a senseless strife.

So I'll take this blade of slender edge, and hang my demons over a ledge. Sever the ties of both me and them, & shed tears of joy as we all meet end.