Standing on the edge
Looking down at the sea
Step away, one, two, three steps
I can’t do it

Sitting on the bed
Blade glistening in my hand
The quick slice, white mark left behind
And then fills with dark red blood

The friends we made along the way
Became the enemies we fight at night
The memories, opening myself
And then you ******* disappeared

The one that stayed
Shouldn’t have stayed…
But he is here
And I am holding on to threads better left to fray

It’s OK
I’m fine
No, I’m not crying
I’m sorry
How are you doing?
I love myself
I don’t care

These are some of the lies
I let pass over my lips
I tell them to you
I tell them to my friends
You know what, I also tell it to myself

It’s not OK
I’m not fine
My eyes are crying a river
I’m not ******* sorry
I don’t care how you are doing
I despise myself
I care way too ******* much…

Please just see me for me.
Just once, I wish I was seen for me.

Look at me
Do you see me?
No you don’t
I’m always the heroine
And never the saved

Heavy is the crown
But I still make you laugh
Doing a silly little dance
And all I am is the jester
And never the empress

Hey, look over there
Now you see me
Oh, now you don’t
I’m always serving up a trick
And never, never the truth