When no one has time for you
And your soul is crumbling
Your feelings can't be renewed
Your heart is tumbling
How many times must I say-
Nothing can fix me
I'm beginning to decay

My childhood's playgrounds don't please me anymore
There's a fire inside me and it's burning to the core
There's ice on the edges and it sticks out like knives
I go around stabbing everyone, hearing their wretched cries

But I'd rather hurt myself instead of hurting them...

Letters to the dead
Are just letters in my head
All those things I wanted to say
But instead were tucked away
Everything I dreamt for us
Except now it's all just dust
Things I always wished for
But now they're all locked doors

It was so sudden, just out of space
It was so horrid, just a slap right in my face
I can't believe you'd abandon me
You set just yourself free
You never left me guidelines
Simply left me our highlights
I thought and thought and thought
But it's only an empty slought


I examined the plastic bottle, inside and out
It sent me throwing it at the wall, making me shout
I have every **** right to be this mad at you
I need someone to go to but now I don't know who
I know that I am spiraling, I feel it in my blood
I can't think anymore, my brain's just filled with mud
If only you hadn't overdosed.. If only you would have stayed...
Maybe we would have been found together in the very best of ways...

I looked and saw the bright light starting to fade
I could not believe the scars I had made
I loved his talk and his mood
At that point I didn’t understand why he had moved
I sat there and waited
Hours upon hours
I couldn’t see why the stars were not ours

I tried to keep calm and steady and still
My love was continuously falling down a hill
I looked to my left and then to my right,
Getting up and running to the old, dusty mill
I was now filled with anger, and full of rage
I had locked my whole mind in a little, rusty cage
More hours upon hours
I still couldn’t see why the stars were not ours

I tried to stay calm, but my anger would build up more
I sprinted out of the old, dusty mill
I looked around for something to ****
I tilted my head, and you are wondering why
I screamed and yelled up into the sky
I was giving up, thinking I wanted to die...
More and more hours upon hours
And the stars still were not ours

I layed in the grass and thought of the sky
I was drifting to sleep as I roughly cried...
In the morning I woke up, my eyes hurting
I heard his voice through the birds' chirping
I looked behind me to see his dark brown eyes
My mind had dug out of all the lies
Lies saying he would never come back
No more hours upon hours
As I realized that the stars were finally ours...

I thought of a quiet place once,
but this place was mysterious in too many ways…
It called me… My name, and asked me to play
But only to find that it had been filled with rotten decay
Decay of Happiness,
And this place was damp with fresh tears…
I found that these tears belonged to me,
And now I only wanted to flee,
Escape the shame inside of me…
Why had I entered this cave of despair?
It was almost like Hell, in its finest
I knew it wasn’t possible for even the slightest repair…
I could not find why I had not cared,
Cared for nothing or anything…
My body hurled, but there were no liquids to be found
As I realized I was trapped I fell to the ground…
I was in an everlasting cave of darkness,
My love had decreased by far less…
I figured that even dying would be best.
I looked up, and saw the walls starting to bleed
They had been trying to feed, but on me, my blood…
I now noticed that my body was bleeding out.
My wrists were slashed and my body was cut,
But how?
I lay on the floor, my body bleeding and yet no pain…
I felt like I was wrapped inside cellophane,
I couldn’t hide my pain.
Not from anyone
Even myself…
I was bound to die right?
Or was I already dead?
I hoped this wasn’t what it was like,
For those usually went to Heaven, not Hell
But I felt like I was already in Hell
I tried to listen, for anything
Even the small tune of a little bell
Just that quiet ring would do
I wanted to know when I would get my cue
Hell was not a place I wanted to be
But I felt as if I were already there
I was not even sure if I could bear
Bear the thought of almost being to Heaven,
And yet big claws dragged me down
I probably looked like a clown,
A ****** one, one who had just murdered everything in its path,
Everything around me was going so fast
Now I was thinking so hard I wasn’t able to do the math
I couldn’t understand what I was feeling inside
Nothing…
As badly as it had already been, I couldn’t even cry
For now I know for sure that I was not feeling sadness myself
But I was a figment of it, I… Was the feeling Sadness all his while…

Everyone will become my tears and they will fall off the face of the earth and leak into the fabric of society.

When you come to the abrupt realization that all that matters now will not matter in the end
Government will not be recalled
The clueless people of the here-and-now will not have done enough to change the fate that will eventually dawn upon them in the future
Peace will be nonexistent
Anarchy will disintegrate into the particles of death from which we call dust
All memories will fade with an icy fire to the center of the galaxy
And the universe, as it did in its own creation, will once again become transparent and collapse into itself

Nightmares are a terrible thing
They give you pain
They takes your dreams
You lose control
You throw a fit
Your life will soon lose all its grip
How will you make it through the night
When you aren't even able to put up a fight
You'll be thinking 'don't sleep, don't sleep'
Just while you're getting the Midnight's Creep

Soon your eyes will become tired
Your head feels as though it's on fire
The room around you is excruciatingly dim
And as time passes...

...Your worst of nightmares will now begin