Crossing thoughts of you.
I miss you.
I hate you.
I want you back in my life.
No I don't.
I remember what you did.
What you said.
Especially how you made me feel.
Not good enough.
Second best.
Just another notch under your belt.
But then,
I still know you love me.
When I look at you, I see your soul reaching for mines but being pulled back by your fear of loving and being loved in return.
And your heart beats faster while your breathing is slow and reserved.
Your mind is telling me you can't live without me and you don't know how to get your mouth to say the words.
But yet you just smile and tell me I'm beautiful and for a moment I remembered the good.
My heart gets hit and sinks down below, slowly, until I'm completely cold, like the titantic.
I swallow the reality of that you won't talk to me.
But you think of me.
When you see her you think of me.
Restless nights are because of me.
You feel sad inside cause your losing me.
But yet your words don't come out.
I'm just so important to you that you can't lose me but yet your losing me.
But then you talked to me.
Our hearts began to beat at the same time.
I smell your aura and it does something to me.
And you look at me like I'm the one you prayed about.
Then you pull me close and kiss me.. and I cry cause my mind tells me to stop and my heart has had enough.
Either I'm yours or that's it.
But then you whisper, this chapter for us isn't finished being written. I can't live without you, because your the light of my life. I'm stunned every time I see you and I never want you to feel bad like that ever again.
But then I ask,
Why did you pick her over me? The girl who knows you better than you know yourself.
He says, I needed a distraction and your not that. I use her but need you and you didn't know that.