Every night they get louder
Telling me everything I’ve done wrong
I can't stop them, though I’ve tried
I’ve tried to ignore them
Tried to silence them
But they keep getting worse
The first few nights my mind took control
It would only bring up the memories
And a few put downs
But then it kept getting worse
It got just a little worse
I would cry for hours into the night
But now… It’s declining rapidly
I can’t stop shaking
I can’t stop crying
The memories are getting worse
The things they’ve said
What they’ve done
The people that have left
And the thoughts that I am thinking
I can’t stop them anymore
“Just think, “ they start
“Just a few seconds too late
“ you forget to break in time.”
Or they say ,” you have them upstairs
“Don’t you?
“Just a few wouldn’t hurt”
But sometimes it’s worse
“Don't watch the light.
“It doesn't matter what color it is, just go”
They are getting harder to ignore
I can’t do this every night
I can’t sleep
The thoughts, they are too much
I can’t stop ******* shaking
My stomach is so tense
I just long for peace
I long for the sweet embrace of death
For I know she’ll welcome me
And pull me into a warm but cold embrace
And I’ll never be alone again
I'll be safe
I'll be home