Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel like crying when I think about him?
I find myself asking “is this love?”
I heard that this is how it felt most of the time
I just never imagined it would hurt this bad
I guessed I never believed it would  
but it does and its like hell on earth
like my heart is on fire
but how is it that others can find there happy ever after?
What am I doing wrong?
I want what my parents have…I cant wait until I finally find it…  
I know I will be truly happy like my mom is…  
I guess that’s why I accepted her husband, its not just because he’s cool and fun and chill but because he makes her so happy
I can’t wait to find my own happy ending.

He corrupts my thoughts and haunts my dreams
He's always on my mind awake or asleep

I try to get rid of him, though as much as i try
I can never get rid of what i feel inside

It's like a drug is what i noticed as i have a weird feeling
I hate the hangover but i love the short good feeling

I know how bad it is for me
But i cant help but feel intrigued

The power it holds on me is actually quite scary
It is just like a person hooked on ecstasy

You heard of the side effects if you take it right?
Your whole life goes wrong and you cant seem to find the light

Until a certain person comes along and saves you from yourself
All you can do is pray that he doesn't come back again.

It's not our darkness that scares us
It's our light we truly fear

Our darkness may consume us
But the light is always near

It's the dim light at the end of the tunnel that drives us forward
Although you may disagree

It's the light not the dark that truly scares us
Can you not see?

In the darkness most find comfort
In the the light most find hardships

Once you accept the dark as well as the light
You accept yourself just as you are.

I knew i shouldn't have talked
I knew i should have kept it all locked

I knew i should have let it just be
And let no one know, no one but me

They proved my point, i was smarter before
But back then it really wasn't a chore

I will go back to my plan that i broke
And stick to it, i really hope i don't choke

I knew i shouldn't have trusted them
No one will ever know my inner thought again
And that's a promise i'll depend

Do you know what you do to me?
Do you know that I've cried myself to sleep?

But it's okay i understand your choice
I'm never anyone's first choice

I act like I don't care
But deep down i swear,
That I've let out a few tears..

You might not see it
Trust me it's not just you who can't

It's because i'm good at hiding
It's locked up in my heart in a real tight binding

Or at least it was until a certain person came along
He didn't notice that i was hiding behind my big, long wall

But soon i told him when i knew i could...
He was shocked that i ever had such a thought, he never thought i would.

I hope i mad ea good choice to tell him such a thing
But i have a feeling i can trust him with my inner being

I really hope i'm not wrong about something so important to me
But i just need someone to know so i don't have to go through it with no one but me

I might be making a mistake but that's okay
This is life and in life you have to find your own way.

When i was a young kid i used to dream
About fairy's, princesses, and even kings.

As i grew up i let them slip
But one dream would always stick

The dream about the princess who found her way
Only by accepting the problems at bay

The princess before was only a peasant
But the story of how she found her love was really quite pleasant.

I dream't through the night of finding such a thing
But only to learn it would be a true blessing.

I want to find someone who will truly accept me
And hopefully WAY before i'm thirty

By the time thirty i want to have 3 little blessings of my own
But i really hope they don't ruin everything i own { :-p }

2 Girls and a boy i used to say
Now i laugh and say "any will truly be the same"

I laugh and i smile, i cry and i frown
But i know deep down
"This is how it starts"

Soon enough i will have my own Prince Charming just like in the books
But i know forever i will be my own Cinderella.

Your sitting at home
All alone
Trying to get through

Your running high
Running low
Hiding from the group

You pray to God
Cause you know
Only he can help you through

But come on sweetie
I can see
That you're hiding insecurities
But i know that you have many opportunities

I'll stay by your side
Got nothing to hide

I will help let people see
How amazing you can be

Then you'll get up off the ground
I hope you don't leave me hanging around

And when you see you life is good
Will you help those who couldn't?

Because if you don't you'll be just like the rest
And you will never be the best

But if you help stop this awful trend
You can help bring bullying to an end.