Posts speaks tonight
I don't know how I don't when.
But it speaks
My mind is blur a blank Space
And still I have thoughts in my head
Whirling around
Like the apolocolase has come
Sitting on a stool step
Mocking my past behavior
Why should I be the one that feels shame and guilt
I'm alive I was the tortured soul
Which way is up I cannot see
Its like a crystal bath I lay in
No one sees me as I melt beneath it
Is it life
I want to be known
I want to be heard
I have the authority but I am not on top
Power within me seeks the warrior I hold in my crystal ball
Gashes were across my skin
Never again
Take me away to the twilight zone

Up late at night
Which is really early morning
Never went to bed just another day
Lying awake wired with thoughts twirling
Worrisome moments hoping all works out
New beginnings
Leaving the home I surrounded myself in
The last five years
Treasured moments
Tragic endings that brought me to life
When all the pain left my soul
The window of my soul was Darkened
Light seeped in as the horror diminished
The human I was broke free and made me feel alive
Start of a new place surrounded by new friends
Life rotates and changes
Emotions wind down and around
Starting over to let myself be me
Silence in my brain of the past
Easy to speak of the damages feelings once rising inside of me
no regrets they retreat to a part of me
That no longer cares
Letting go will set tou free
The window I will no longer stare out of
As my life had flashed before my eyes
Like lightning speed
I have learned to know what I am
No longer caring what others think
This is me and that is it
One story had ended and a new one shall begin tomorrow as I enter unknown territory.

This gloomy fog morning
By the Brooklyn beach
Can't see two feet in front of me
entangle myself in the web
Take in the calm
Welcome to the world of the unknown
Open to new possibilities
Options are endless
Never ending solutions to problem
This morning makes my mind stir
Feel the earth shattering
As the fog takes hold of me
Carries me on upward
I am just a woman
Down on my knees
Living life to the fullest
Let it go and let life take you by the hand
Guidance as it pulls you onward
Take hold of your outcomes
Believe in yourself
Get it done and move on

I smell the crispy air
As I wake bright and early
Still so dark and lonely out
It feels like heaven as I envelope myself in peace
The trees rustle in the wind
As their embodiment shakes throughout the movement
The grass is brighter than. I've ever seen
I'll start my day at peace
Silence is a virtue
once the world comes alive
Too much movement
Non stop chatter
The ocean waves crash onto the sandy beach
Take it in
Breathe the air
Smells so fresh with salt in the air
Gather a moment and start the day
Come see me grow
Adapt to all lifestyles
I shall be at peace forever in the morning

Never chase the wolf. When I call it runs to me. It understands my feelings. It recognizes when I need to get away and calm down. When I get anxious the wolf sits next to me and waits. We travel through the forest together searching for our missing pieces. When you are lost a companionship will hopefully help you find what you are missing. This wolf helped me understand where I was and told me how to start healing and be there for me throughout the process.