It's hot as ****
Mind floating in the sky
Drop the ink into the dish
Finishing your portrait

This place feeling like home
For one golden moment
All it's missing is 2 friends and a cat

Look me up and down
Feel me with your eyes
Taste me with your breath
Lay my  body
Cold cotton licks my back
Steel columns ground my hips
Warm tongue sculpts my thigh
first kiss
Finger tips touch lips

Bar X

Had my face stayed one
Had I not lost my job
Had I not ******
The tattoo artist

I would not have travled
Down the city
45 minutes from home
Total strangers

One night
Had my arms heavy
Without you
Vision blurred behind your glasses
One night
One week before you go

White sheets glowing in sun
You wake me
With your soft voice
You fell asleep on my belly

Day four
Three more to go
My arms will stay heavy
I'll use your flannel to keep them up

Suicide is something I think about often
Not because I'm sad
Because I hate the person you want me to be
Because I've let myself try and become that
Gripping on to the person I am
Also trying to become
what you want me to be
I can't be bother
So it's time to choose
The person I am
The person I've come to love
Or the person you want
What my family wants
Could I be both
What you want
Keep who I am really a secret
A ghost
A lie to you
It's time to choose

You drunk me out of the shower
Arms running
Got me on the bed
Dumped all the ***** out
Sharp objects boxed
Still in your car
Held you on the kitchen floor
799 miles apart
Still my girl
My ride or die
We'll share the one bed room again
Never actually apart
799 miles away close as ever
Sure you're tracking my up and down
I love you bea
I'll see you soon
We can "not cry together"
We can have the flowers rain down again
See you soon babe