I am drownding in my own head
Every grasp at air is filled with your smell
I can still taste your mouth
pouring down my throat
Compounding like rocks
Taking me deeper into my memories

Water runs over me
like your lips down my back
Coming up for air
The water has settled

until

someone
he's looks like you
I feel your hands on my thigh
Holding my body closer to your mouth
I am the only sound you hear now
You are the only one I remember
My voice howling with the night
A  symphony of melodic moans
Our bodies are in a dance
knowing each step before the next
No need for practice
The last song I will sing you
The last taste between my legs
To bad we didn't know
It could have been a grand finale.

People ask if I miss my city
My roots were not set deep enough to miss it
Growing out to my family as a child
They have shriveled from dehydration
never watered

All my lovers axed them to bits

Friendships 3 roots grown together
Them I miss

one new lover
Still budding and just inches from the surface
I will see him again
We will see how deep our roots grow together before they part ways
799 miles away.

I don't even know how to say it anymore
I though I had clicked with others
But not like this
You are
Something else

I want two kids
Twins, I can have those
In passing I told you
Wide eyed you said that's all I want
A house, small, with twins
10 years seporated us

799 miles
now between us
With us
A small house with twins