Somebody help me with a crisis

I'm lost without notices

Figuring out ways to help another

In a struggle

That's not sad

That's not relative to anything

Just more about human being.

Early in the morning too much caffeine
Haven't slept yet because Im sad at 5:13
All of my friends are away
My brain is washed like ***** clothes
I can't forget how much I miss those days
When I didn't have to worry about
Where to sleep
When to eat

Now all my mistakes are catching up
And running out of breath
My body is weak, I'm hurting inside

I just want to end my life
**** it all **** myself for all I care
Too bad I'm only human
Oh I try and want to believe
But I'm only human
At the morning of 5:13

For The Friends



Oh world in my name
I pray about the future
Enlighten me with your pain
Teach me the wisdom
To leave a fulfilling life
With everything included
No gaps or blanks, I'll strive
All the Hate, lies. Decimated
Wishful mind *****
Demented in nature
A beautiful soul in vain?

Requested I'm asking
Press play and record my voice
I'm young now, becoming old
Age, I fear for health
Holding dear.

Social rules, social evil
Now it's really difficult
To be with Them.

So World?
Let me learn
To become a monster
From the storm
Full of hatred and regret
Or I'll wither from the wind
Reborn, growing again.

Just like before
Just like then
I am in need of my friends.

Wide eyed
Grinned to the teeth
So sublime
You would think I'm on LSD

Freely Vulnerability.

Senses are released
Talk about you, talk about me.
Where is the understanding of university? Us or We?

As if the air becomes too thick to breathe.
Gentle screaming of ignorance.
Coughing up my plateful entreé of broken memories.

Full of Love, Full of Hate.
Evil contradiction flossing between my neuropathological pathways.
Tell me this and telling me that
Let's go do this or **** mate lets go smoke crack!

Then again it suddenly feels too real.
Reincarnated of birth again.
A small baby pure eyes with nothing to fear.
Everything's gonna be alright dear.
Reality strikes and baby needs Love.
Gasping for life to fill my lungs!
Even when your blind.
Seeing ain't so.
Hard to remember if mother was dying while blood stopped bumping with the beat.
Categorized in Booz, hate, disbelief.

Standing over organized chaos.
Trying to persuade how to be the best.
Yeeeeet. You got to BE.
Don't react in failure but Act out on the success of futuristic possibilities.

Accompany others to help shine their inner souls.
No matter the exposure always let them know how much they are
no comparison to others or other things.
Materials are made and used
Don't let brainwash propaganda distract you from the clues to live for.

Be patient and don't go overboard.
Reevaluate and double check if the senses are really coming down from way back.

Let yourself be evolution to the fullest.
Never expect to be always sharp. Just have a core that will never be thrown away.

Forever more.

Au revoir.

Highs and lows
This is my life
I'm riding in a roller coaster that never stops going left or right
I'm high on mania
I'm depressed to death
Suicides my best friend
While adrenaline is my usual breath
Sometimes I think about love
But it doesn't last long
Only wishing angels could come from above
Lost in translation
My heart hurts
So much that it feels like Phillip screwdrivers stabbing me
From my mind connected my heart
Everyday I make connections but I always fall apart
No more I say no more I feel
It's destroying my cardiovascular
Even though I can't find myself anything
Spectacular
They say I'm this and that and it's all good
Not much of bad stuff I'm sure
When it's life? Is it now?
They kept telling me the cure
But all I heard instead was the nuisance of bad words.

I was laying in the snow
Then came an angel who I didn't know
Wings as elegant like fine wine
Hair angelic that will last until the end of time
Levitating when she got me perspiring
Freezing, why it gotta be this day
Beautiful inlaid I didn't see I didn't play
Lost in hypnosis is a place somewhere deep, of all tragic emotions.