I drift into consciousness one hour before noon
Worthless sack of ****
Scrolling for anything to make me happy
Nothing will today.
One hour later, I take a thirty minute shower
Pathetic and alone
I made coffee for after my shower so it wasn't too hot
There is that at least
I start thinking about you endlessly, longing for us again
What we could have been
And even after you came back to me with an ever beating heart
I still told you no.
It is now the afternoon, I am now getting my first cavity filled
They did not numb me
It was too small for that, I was told it was probably just genetic
There is that at least
I now wait for to go hang out with friends
Something needed now
Because as I wait, you infiltrate my mind, the regret of letting you go
I can't help but cry.
After hours upon hours of weeping, I arrive at my friend's house
Nothing too special
We just sit around and eat and goof around
There is that at least
And while I continue to be with friends
You infest my thoughts
Only instead of feeling loneliness and regret
I simply feel sad.
It may not be much
But it is better than before
So there is that at least