I miss you
I miss your touch
I miss your eyes
I miss the way you look at me
I miss your goofiness
I miss you
But I can’t because im stuck
I’m stuck in a cave where my thought bounce off the walls and I have no clarity of what I think
    And the cave is dark and I’m alone and I’m scared my heart hurts from the anxious beating it does
my screams are drowned out by inconsistent thought
How do I fix this ?
How do I get out?

I felt angry when I heard your name it’s so stupid that you have that power over me
I felt sad when I saw you in the halls and you couldn’t even look me in the face
I felt confusion when I laid in bed at night wondering what I could’ve done to fix this what could’ve gone better
I sit wondering if it was supposed to end like this were we supposed to just go our own ways?
I feel gloom when I think about how I hurt you
I feel myself slowly moving on but you’ll always have a piece of my heart because during that short time I let you in,
you grabbed as much as **** possible and now my heart is missing a piece and I wouldn’t ask for it back because it’s rightfully yours.

I feel myself slowly crack again like I first did but this time it’s different the crack isn’t as deep and it doesn’t delve into sadness
The wound oozes anger and regret
I cut myself wide open and now I’m bleeding the consequences

I feel slick
Like I am traveling through dimensions
slipping
into one
and
onto another
I am with you
You are with me
We are together
And you make me feel like I’m slipping from reality
I feel as if I’m drowning in syrup
So sweet I don’t mind
I can’t breathe when I see you,
you take my breath
Heavy.
my eyes feel heavy as my head rests on your chest as I slip into a syrupy sweet dream where I am in layers of sugary coated words
Where I smile
Where I can’t breathe

You trace shapes onto a hollow rib cage
Where my heart should be
Where it is
But feels empty
My brain is fuzzy with thoughts
Why don’t you love me?