Life and death something we look forward too
Happy and sad feelings no matter what you do
Some look at it as “the beautiful way of life”
But some can’t seem to understand why we have to live and die
While yes it’s sad
It all so sweet think about it
You get to live and see all the things
Stand on the roof and shout it
“life and death”
Me I’m not scared I feel the best
Can’t wait till the day I die
Can’t wait to be laid to rest
Don’t be sad when I’m gone
Look for me in the horizon
And when I’m dead and gone
remember me for my son

You know that feeling when your stomach turns
Over and over till you spazz
Nothing given in return
you gave your last
Got nothing back
So now your city burns
Like a phoenix
And all the pain we’ve all seen it
Nothing to gain from this
Nothing but pain from this very moment
I hate you for leaving me in the dust
What the ****
You were my ride or die
But I was left behind
You should’ve stayed
But no you played
Not I feel betrayed
BETRAYAL

Thought I was done but I’m in pain
I feel the same as that day I was 13
Still remember just what you said
“I’ll be here right when you need it”
“I’ll be there” NO DONT REPEAT IT
“Save my number know that I mean it”
I’m you father don’t have a reason
So you just took a stand?
What
You feel like a man?
My *****
Was that the plan?
To act like I’m a fan
You on the way?
Promise you’re comimg”
Can you stay?
Or were you fronting?
Just to say that “I’ve done it”
Just to say that “it’s nothing”
When really it was something
Something big filled with purpose
I ashamed how it’s hurting
I’m just a little girl
Wandering in this big *** world
Im feeling strange
Write me a brand new page
Bro this chapters too long
I’ve been reading this **** for days
Can’t understand just what it says
Can you read me my line
Sorry just one of those days
You know
Or maybe not
I have a new thought
It’s been a long month
And a hell of a year
I’ve shed too many tears
A ringing in my ear
To cover this little fear
Like death is eerily near
I lost my father just last year
Well not my father really
More like an outer demon
You know like inner demons
But this one you can see and
And this one you’ve believed in
Think about everything and
I see you in those dreams when
I dream of everything and
I need to take a drink and
Don’t think that you’re the reason
I think the way I think cause
You’re gone now i see its
Not new but you’re six feet so
Couldn’t prepare for where that would go
On the highway n not driving slow
Motorcycle and no helmet on
You seen that semi and you sped up bro
Until you crashed and your brain stopped real slow
I shouldn’t cry over a man I don’t know
But man sometimes you really gave us a show
We never thought that’d be the day that you go
So now I’m fading slow

Thoughts?
Form the pain from which your demons gain
Dark...
Memories?
Linger your mind constantly continuing to tease your conscience
Dark...
Space?
An emptiness too vast to be filled
Dark...
Mind?
Is empty
It’s…So…
DARK

A pain so deep it can’t be healed
A hole so wide it can’t be filled
A strain so strong it can’t be beat
And chills so cold you can’t feel heat
These are all feelings i wish I felt
But now I am numb to what most describe as

A PAIN. SO. DEEP.