As a kid,
We always use to play
Games
Tag, hide & seek
And red light green light
Years went on
To show that
Childhood memories
Turn in to adulthood ignorance
Tag becomes domestic violence
Hide & seek results in child support
For all the parents who leave their families
Red light green light becomes drunk driving
All resulting in a midlife crisis

Dear friend 
Its been awhile since we first met
Oh the good times we had
Cooking
Singing
All in the mist of life
As the world crumbled at out feet
You so happened to fall beneath 
Ill miss you
And all the things we've done
But now its time to say
You stayed just for fun

As I'm walking home
I feel a strange presence
One that may be non-existent

I cant see it
But it screeches my name
"SHYHEIM"

No ones there
"SHYHEIM"
I start to sprint

Throw all the thoughts that pops up
In my mind
Im lost

Lost within myself
Scared of nothing
But this one shadow

That has been torturing
Me since
My middle school years

I turn around
To see
That it was only

My fear of
Being left
Again

Dear my love,
Im writing this to you because you expressed how lonely you feel. Ican give you all the ups and downs about that but the one thing i cant fix is the past. Your not lonely because im still here helping you struggle through the pains of scumbag families and long lost friends. Im not going to be either of them.... yes i get mad but its because the thought of you leaving is like a hurricane sweeping away your whole life. Away.... to the depths of nowhere and the heights of life... remember when we first met, how i said i wish you were mine.... that's no longer a wish..... because i noticed having you is like a gift of life. If we were meant to be then you're going to stay. Til the day natural causes claims our lives. I love you

             Yours truly,
                                 Gone

Sitting up late
Thinking where did we go wrong
Without you
I'm incomplete
Seeing you with my friends
Hugging other guys
Im lost
At lunch I dread
Every couple I see
Knowing one day
They'll be better
Than me
If you see this some how
Just know this is for you

Love is like call of duty... There's two teams you on one and your partner or crush on the other. Each time you fall on love its a **** every time your heart is broken a piece of you is dead. It's a horrible way to think of it but there's no other way to think of it. I just want someone to love and be happy with without being cheated on. If I tell you I love you I mean it. If I want to do something for you don't question it. Everyone thinks guys are animals well I'm the most softest animal on this planet because I don't want ***... I just want someone to be happy with. I'm not going to hurt you... But if you cheat on me you'll see the side of me that not many People can say they've seen... I'm done dying.... I just want to ******* be happy... No more resets, no hidden stories, arguments can happen but I'm not arguing over little crap... No one wants to give some guys a chance so hey... I'm not gonna sit and break my neck... I'll just move on....

We stand together
Watching the leaps
Of the dolphins
And the fishes fly
Then....
A mysterious being floats
Making a "come hither" motion
In the waters
I scream to see if its
Okay
No sound
I hurry to save it
As you scream
Dont go
Continuing the journey
To save the creature
It gets closer
And closer
And CLOSER
then it dissipates
GONE
As im floating down
To the dark abyss
That the Tidal Wave
Put me in

You claimed my life for 6 years
Im tired of the constant arguments
Crying
You telling me i am nothing
But a number
And best of all
You embarrassing me.

Its time for you to go,
Away not to hurt anyone else
But away for good
And your companion that helps you too
The two of you together bring not
Only my life but others down too
So im politely you
Man to mind
Anxiety and depression please
Leave me alone

Sitting here patiently
Waiting for
A good laugh
Or a nice smile
As i sit in this black hole
Shredding my emotions away
Happiness
Sadness
Anger
All gone
The ways to express your well being
Dead
And gone
As if i were
Just born

I came to conculsion
That almost every thought was a illusion
That caused me to halluucinate and think
That i was just an exclusion to this thing we call home
If this is home I'd like for all my friends and family to love me and tell me how great i will be and will soon be
But thats just a delusion because life isnt all sunshine and rainbows, we fill this planet with hate.... lust... sorrow.... guilt....
Thats why i secluded myself in this steel box filled with nothing but a stone wall with a bed and toilet... locked away from all the negativity so i can see how much rain it takes to make that rainbow and how much sun to make that shine..... because in the end...... i did this for you..... my own delusion

If not you then who
If not now then when
When will I see you again
Because it was only you that showed me the light

I've been tossed
And used
But you showed me
The missing fortune

Now my fortune is gone
Because it was only you who saw

He opens the gate
To enter the world
Of endless hate
Walks in the house
To put his heart
On a plate
To see all the sections
That his heart has
Hate
Is taking a toll on his
The once lovable boy
That had tons of bumps and
Became something straight
As the gates begin to close
He is one of us

Today marks the day of the box
There is a picture of us
That i keep glaring
Wondering how you may be
Time goes on
The picture begins to fade away
No longer you and i
But i see you and another guy
He seems to be happier with you
Than i was when i was
I wish I could say im sorry
But sorry cant take back the pains
Before i entered this box
I told you i love you
As i was lifted dragged and screaming away from you
No longer you and i
But you and the old me
And that me
Is wishing to be seen
Once again

Truly
Remebered
Us
Staying
Together

She understands that
You don't like him
But you say all these ****** words

Yeah shes yours
But yours to love
This pain and regret

Is the ignorance of
The creator
Thats corrupting your soul

Hey
I came to ask you this:
Is this the end?
End of the whole theory of " us against the world "
I think your giving up
With a possibility of you being pregnant
Id miss my kid if you were
I want to be able to see and care for my kid with his mother
Not letting my kid call another guy daddy
Thats scary
Honestly with all my heart
I
Love
You
More than i can ever
If this is goodbye
How'd we end up like this?

It's like my whole life just got destroyed
Even worst than the day she left
Or when the towers collapsed
Only thing is the world isn't there
To mourn the person I knew best
A veteran, a saviour
My grandfather

Its been so long
Since we spoke
I remember the days
Where id
Run in and poke until you've
Awoken
Now it feels like a joke
The only time you laugh
Is when i burn and crash
Hopefully....
Just hopefully
You won't see me slash

You left him broken
Left in the unknown
Found a new guy
He’s All alone