When i take these drugs
They take me a little farther from this pain
But when i come down they deposit me
a little farther
From where i came

Laying here destroyed
Both body and mind
I try to blame it on her
But this burden's mine
With thoughts of love in mind
I picked up the bottle
And tried to unwind
It didn't work
Just made everything worse
Woke up side aching in pain
I think I'll get drunk again

I need something to help me cope
I need some sort of ******* hope
Something to cover it up
A comforting hug
A warm blanket
That everything feels okay in

this is what the night has crescendo'd into
me sitting here , drunk, nothing to do
I wish I could break this vicious cycle
but I've always been a faithful disciple
once I start down a path
I always try to make it last
but it never works in the end
looks like change always wins

If I could collect my thoughts
I would be different
If things weren't so hard
I would be distant
My life is too hard
For me to give in

I tried
I tried hard
It didn't work
It happened again
I don't know why
I tried so hard
And things seemed good
Then things went back
To the way they were
It happens every time
I tried so hard
But this is the story of my life

A dream long forgotten
Close enough to touch again
Usurped just before the end