Maybe,
if I was smarter,
braver,
cursed by everyone.
If I was:
taller, stronger, better,
than the silent song you sang.
You would heat my frozen soul,
you would be the one I want.
I could stay till you feel better,
you could hide between my arms.

But the end of all my dreaming,
lies in someone elses hand,
we will break up all our stories,
I was not the man I am.

The ever peaceful wallowing sea
It sings a broken song to me
The waves they carry me ashore
I am at peace
I drift no more

For just that fleeting bit of time
My mind was still
The truth seemed mine
All the knowledge and held beliefs
Were soon forgotten
A fast relief.

Watch it return
As the world denied
Our search for God
In our bloodshot eyes

The horizon seems so close to us
A call to fullfill our every lust
As soon as our blurred vision breaks
We are crashing through those pearly gates

The winds are forceful, blowing hard
They shout the name of confused hearts
Its echo burns the reddish sands
I know this song
I stride this land.

Watch it return
As the world denied
Our search for God
In our bloodshot eyes.

I'm not sure where I left it...
Did I lose it on that warm evening?
Where we stared into each others soul,
and there were no words left to be spoken?

Maybe,
it slipped through my fingers.
As we walked through the park,
hand in hand,
decisively,
acting out the script of a play.

I'm pretty sure it was me.
I let it fall and extinguish.
I let it glide towards the ground,
and it perished.

But you.
You, did absolutely nothing.
To relight it.

The color of fire?
Bottomless blue
Your eyes.

The color of fire?
Mad red
Your lips.

You are raging fire.

But in my dreams you are always,
present,
softly stroking my hair,
while I dive into your bussom.
While I drown between your arms.

In my dreams,
you hold my heart close to yours,
and we exchange the fire.
We both turn ourselves to ashes.
Burn down, together, till nothing is left.

In my dreams.
I forget you when awake.

There is no drink strong enough to forget you
No wine sweet enough to fill my heart
I am lost in the limbo of your love
Unable to separate up and down
My only support point was you
Without you I fall into the unknown
Without you I am lost in eternity

Forever yours.

She tells me that i have no feelings
That I'm like a stone
With no heart
Cold as granite.

Even though I tell her that I love her,
she does not care.
I am ice
She says.
And it's true.

You are not like a burning fire
That throws sparks in every direction.
You are more like an oven,
Dark, heavy and with thick walls.
Cold as steel
As she reminds you.

You can not see the fire.
But it is in there.
You listen to it slowly chip away at each branch that is thrown into it.
And you can feel the warmth.
You know that there is something in there.
Something that, is going up in flames.
It will never burn you
But it will carry you through each cold winter

With clubs and stones you walk through the streets
To demand,
what you are entitled to.
The heat
The adrenaline
It corrodes your whole body
Determination flows through you like thunder
Sweat covers you forehead like rain
You want to scream
You are alive!!!

But then,
You remember
Gray walls in front of you
That old clock ticking away
And the television running.
It's throwing rainbows on your face

And that hate you had
All of a sudden,
vanished

Time
You cannot stop it.
There is nothing scarier,
than watching it pass
That moment is forever gone
That's why we have jobs
That's why we watch TV
To ignore
How it fades

It cannot be caught
Or saved in a wooden box
You cannot see or hear it
And you will not find it anywhere.
Looming in a corner
Or hiding beneath your bed.

It has left you for a better lover
It has joined
The past.

Trying to understand
is harder than understanding.
Trying to love
is harder than loving.
The effort vanishes
And what is left
Is emptiness.
I gave up seeking
And through change
Found it all

The pen
It writes down ideas
You wouldn't have been able to come up with
It has its own life
Its own thoughts
It flourishes only between your fingers.

I fell in love with you
I surrendered to your being
Every moment ever lived reminds me of you.
Of your eyes, of that smile.
It makes me weak, powerless.

I would like to forget,
but I have pawned off my soul for you,
for nothing but a void illusion.
And it is forever lost,
as long as my memory holds you.