Just leave me alone
I don't wanna know anything
everyone is pretending
they don't know
but I can feel that it will all be ending

we all are acting
the world is a stage
when you see me
I look down
and into the shadows I fade

broken socially
nothing matters
need to know
what comes after
I'm a crippled pilgrim crawling faster...

frustration is all around
making me live in doubt
trying my best
not to let my silent scream get out

bittersweet is the life
living invisible
I have no expression
cause I'm trying my emotions
don't want no one to know
I am miserable

mentally melting
as my world shatters
words have no meaning
when nothing matters...

they threw a saint into the fire
just to get a reaction
nervously some were laughing
some didn't know what was happening

the trail of the walking dead expanded
creepy crawling in transit
if there is life after this
I don't want it

Cracked and fractured
I feel the pavement spin
emotionally unstable
bashed by
emotional torture again

Its a strange pursuit
in the burning confusion
living is bittersweet
when your surviving as a ghost

so many times
I have tried
to communicate
when I talk no one is listening
I'm locked down in life's prison

I'm a dead man walking
in the stench of a lifetime
gagging and staggering
I'm on death row
with hollow eyes

resistance to the indulgence
and
fighting assimilation
I think I'm broken
there are to many Illusions
only cruel lies are spoken

I don't have friends
I have acquaintances
when they are around
I am just a captive in the audience

no healthy survival
with wounds that never heal
my face cracks
whenever I start to feel

As I look
at the stars at night
emotional feelings crescendo
as I wonder
if love is really gone,
lately you have been acting strange
and think I do not know
but I can tell
there is something wrong.

When we are together
I feel alone
in silence
my soul cracks in pain
why does love die so slow?

By myself on lonely nights
when there is no one else around
all I do is think of you
and I cry
because I do not know what to do with out you

The words to let me go
are never said
I just
keep hanging on
as I remember what love was
as it slowly withers and fades

soon memories of love
when it was strong
will be all that I have
you will be a ghost
another emotional scare needing to heal


By myself on lonely nights
that is when I emotionally break down
all I do is think of you
it hurts to know
we are not in love anymore.

I had a dream
that I survived
they thought I was dead
but
I keep coming back....
I'm a ghost
and I laugh
as I watch as their minds crack

I am fractured
emotionally broken
ignored in life's jail
the stench of a lifetime
fills my cell
where I dwell in hell
and they know....
that's why
they are so surprised
when they see my ghost

I watch them as they bruise
and ******* the pilgrims
  everyday
their eyes are cold
and they smile as they inflict pain,
no healthy survival for the forsaken
as we dance in depression in a daze.

I've become a creature with no features
with revenge on my breath with wounds that never heal
they never expected a ghost
would manifest
from their hatred

I see them as they shake in fear
the pain is to hard to bare
they stumble round
deep in sorrow
their minds break
cause they just can't take
my haunting as left them hollow

In a quiet moment
i was thinking about how we were
and the way we use to be
before the emotional torture became dominant

the look on your face
as you told another lie
reminded me of the pain
as that memory
took me back to that time

no tears in my eyes
though I was sure it was love
you were no angel from above
when I was on the ledge
you pushed and shoved

you're a creature
with no features
you had me always wanting
all you did was taunt me
its clear
you never cared
but
still you are haunting
all night you got me moaning