What is your escape?

Maybe it is writing all the words out on a page
The ones that haunt your thoughts
And hurt too much to say out loud

Maybe it is drawing your dreams on a canvas
Taking the faces and monsters from inside
And letting them escape with the flick of a brush

Maybe it is running far away from your reality
Feeling the sweat drip down your face
As you leave everything that once was, behind

Maybe it is singing all your hearts desires
Hearing the notes take on a life of their own
As they drown out all of your worries

Maybe it is dancing to the beat of your own drum
Feeling your body tell its own story
And changing the ending so it is yours

This world is full of
Hate, rage, dishonesty, and prejudice
Just to name a few

But it is also full of
Love, kindness, hope, and respect
Too

The world has its’ own reality
And it is up to you to decide
If the worlds’ reality will be yours too

Everyone needs to escape from the world
Taking the time to think about no one
But yourself

Is it selfish?
Yes but in order to show compassion
One must first learn to be selfish for the right reasons


So take the time to love yourself
So you can learn to love other people too
And tell me

What is your escape?

Anxiety
I wish it would go away
But instead it decides to stay…

You feel your pulse race
You try find a safe place
To curl up and cry
Because all you want is to fly
Away so no one has to see
How unhappy you may be

You walk into the room
Someone asks “hey how you doing?”
You start some small talk,
but to your shock
You get irritated over something small
Uh oh, here starts your downfall

You lay down and try to sleep
But don’t worry, it won’t be deep
Your mind will start to run
It’ll make sure to have fun
While it tears you apart
And rips out your heart

You try make new friends
Maybe even tie up other loose odds and ends
But you let your mask slip
And start to lose your grip
They think you are mad
But really you’re just sad
You try to explain
But it turns out vain

You start some meds
Because everyone says
Your mind is unstable
And if you take these you might be able
To start on a new path
That won’t leave you a bloodbath

You start to feel empty
And think “why has everyone left me”
You feel all alone
Like you’ve been thrown
Aside and forgotten
Like something that's gone rotten

You begin to wonder
As you start to go under
Why you feel the way you do
If only you knew
There is a variety
Of ways to be attacked by anxiety.

Love is Never as it Seems

If you love, I hope you see
Not everything is as it’s made out to be.

If you love, I hope you hurt
Because that’s what you get for being a flirt.

If you love, I hope you feel pain
Maybe next time you’ll use your brain.

If you love, I hope you’re strong
Because no matter what you’ll always be wrong.

If you love, I hope you hear
When I say people disappear.

If you love, I hope you learn
People will let you crash and burn.

If you love, I hope you know
There’s not much worse you can undergo.  

If you love, I hope your tears stream
Because love is never as it seems.

Depression
It’s lurking in the shadows
You slip into its’ clutch
You hope it doesn’t show
Not even a touch

It makes you feel empty
Like you do everything wrong
Maybe it will be friendly
And won’t string you along

It burrows deep inside
Slowly taking over your life
You hide behind your disguise
To get away from peoples’ hateful eyes

It makes your world dark
You push people away
Just one tiny spark
Could make you runaway

It lets you sink
You slowly run out of air
But then you think
Does anybody really care?