By Mayz

Love is the thing that keeps you up all night because you'd rather talk to that person than sleep. Love can be the best feeling in the world and also the worst. It can bring you higher than you've ever been, build you, complete you, make you. Or it can tear you apart, completely destroy you, make you question everything you know, keep you up at night and wonder where things went wrong. Love is wanting someone else's happiness more than your own. Love is sacrifice. It is respect and selflessness, forgiveness. Love is the thing that makes the world worthwhile, makes your bed not seem lonely at night, your days without them so much longer and your years with them so much shorter. It is the thing that makes you look at that person and think about how you've never seen something so perfect
Love is an will forever have for you my love

As an innocent child, heaven was in the sky
I looked to the brilliant stars as they twinkled
I gazed at a full moon with awesome delight
A rainbow was magic, a prism of many colors
The beauty of fluffy white clouds was alluring
Even raindrops falling brought me such joy
The sun with all it's warm rays were soothing
Yes, to me this was pure and sweet heaven
Then there was nature and all is creatures
The joy of watching birds fly across the sky
I wanted to fly high like the dancing butterflies
From flower to flower the bees were having fun
High upon the trees I heard wonderful songs
Squirrels playing, birds chirping, leaves rustling
Yes, to me this was pure and sweet heaven
As I grew older I discovered heaven in another way
I didn't have to look high to the shimmering stars
I saw the sweet sparkle in her beautiful blue eyes
The warmth of her sweet lips as soothing at the sun
Yes, I learned to fly, but not with wings of doves
Her kisses set me flying like magic into the wind
Her embrace was graceful as dancing butterflies
And when she says she loves me with all her heart
I know it will feel like the rainbows in the sky so beautiful
Yes, to me this was pure and sweet heaven
Yes, I know that this is merely heaven on earth
I believe in another heaven where angels sing
I believe in God who gave us all this beauty
But I must not forget that heaven is within me
I can feel, touch, taste, and yes, even love
So if anyone ever ask me "Which way is heaven?"
I simply will say "Heaven is in my loves eyes

PLife is like a bullet it goes by so fast here today and gone tomorrow.
There's so much I wish I could change if the past would come back around for just one day.
I would leave this letter for my younger self then maybe I wouldn't regret the choices I made.

Dear Younger Me,
There's so much I want to say like slow down enjoy each day.
Don't take the one's closes to you for granted there will come a day when they will go away.
Live hard love even harder keep your loved one's close and never let anger get in the way.
Enjoy the little things even the sunrise that wakes you up for school every morning.
Don't try to grow up fast because one day you will be 32 and not even recognize your own face.
Losing your loved ones to old age it's no fun being alone when your old and grey.
So heed my warnings life is not something you can replace you get one chance so make it count each day part

trying to escape, tried so many different ways
yet still, minute by minute, day by day
stuck in my anxieties, have thoughts
yet nothing to say

damage has been done that i cant reverse
this anxiety is more than a problem, its a curse
always worried not to upset or say something wrong
always uncomfortable, not one tamed thought
the edge is always near, always on guard
knowing normality is to far

watching the laughter and fun but never truly involved
as soon as i start its like my mind has a wall
all negatives come flooding threw taking my air flow
in and out my anxieties grow
what are they thinking? what do i do?
Am i fitting in? not knowing how to be me, true

some days i think i am changing, getting better
being louder, more thoughts being said. Not so tender
one person, one thing can bring me right back
its like i was seeing then lost the track
like i was running, now i am just in place
i was winning, then slowing down, lost the race
the light at the end of the tunnel was so bright
everything was feeling good, i was feeling right

then the clouds cover me, swallow me inside
there i sit, looking down on what i could be
that rain you feel, tears to all my cries
crying out for someone, something to save me from all these edges
loud in my head yet quiet to the ears of all present

First sight of the full moon I was struck by its coldness and moved by the Moon's brighter side;
I tried to sleep but a light shone brilliantly through my window pane.
Not a thing, just perhaps the lights of an airplane ready to descend and land.
Still mot able to sleep, close the blind to no longer see;
That brightness in the night kept me awake. Again peeking out my window I feel the cold of winter.
Yet, not at a distant to reach I'm transfixed by the Moon's brilliance staring down at me.
Stillness, glumly and chilled eye to eye, both the moon and I touching the each from the night's sky.
Not a blinking star in the sky; Universe big and wide only the Moon and I together know why.

Lovely how the moon shines
A glaze before my very eyes
Like frosting on a cake supreme
The sheen makes my spirits fly
A dessert to feed the hungry soul
A reflection always filled with love
The velvet skies draped in a glow
A gift from the gods up above
What greater joy than to share it
As your eyes enjoy the celestial beams
A love we both share transcends
Beyond our window it seems
Beneath the heavens We reside
mere Humans, and mortal souls
The moon and stars ever present
As velvet darkness Unfolds

My only wish
I’m scared of not missing you anymore, I’m scared to live that day.
I’m scared my mind will erase the memory of the day you went away.
I put a lot of trust in you, you said that you were different.
Your intellect was beyond the hood, but I guess not far enough to miss it.

I guess I should’ve told you that I’m really sensitive, though I try to act like I don’t mind, that night I still relive.
I’m ashamed because I know I love you way more than you like me,
and that I cry for you when you’re not here so much that I can’t see.

This headache just won’t go away its been here since you left.
Though loud yet meek, though screaming yet bleak, this loss truly feels like death.
I pray you don’t feel these words are a stretch because we’ve shared limited time,
or that I’m completely insane for tatting your name, assuring I’ve lost my mind.

Well, the truth is that you are for me, and I’ve known it since we met.
Yeah, we fought, loved, broken up, but there’s something you just have to get.
I don’t want anyone else baby doll, I don’t want another man.
I’ll build you up and give you my heart to cradle in your hand.

I admit I am attached baby, and dangerously its true.
That I want to offer my body and soul as a sacrifice to you.
I pray you never leave my side though physical I can take,
but mentally please stay awhile and never leave this place.

365 days is the longest fight I feel I’ve already been beat.
That waiting is indeed the hardest game and I’ve just succumbed to defeat.
Terell aka my babe that definitely is what you are.
Though unspoken yet chanted, and rough yet romantic, this love was written in the stars.

I don’t know what you feel inside, or if this load you can carry.
If once you’re out you’ll go buck wild or settle down and marry.
I feel we’ll be getting to know each other more so here than before,
so open and let me in because it’s you that I adore.

The fate of this relationship is exclusively up to you, ill be holding down my end until my biggest dream comes true-
I love you