i just. want. you.
<as ever>
allthevowels
& consonants
whatever-it-meant
it was just _ you
& me &
allofthewords
sounds of fall _ ing
into ~ some ~ thing ~ that
| mattered |
& nobody really
fills  me ^ up ^
like ¥ou
however /sideways/
it > all > went.
it meant it all
to me
heart-on-my-sleeve
[i supppse]
just a wish is all
it could
be;
#dammitdarling
i was. so. sure.
i fit >on >your >mouth
so
perfectly

i'm {pretty} certain
i'llbestaying
in | love | with you
Oh >> I wouldn't choose it
it just >set>tled >there
behind. each. rib.
under _ my _ tongue _
between-each-breath
the grind
& the gasps
e•ve•r•y ••••sigh
= empty resign
at. just. the. thought.
of your
× name ×

the words. don't. come.
so e as ily
these _ days
not so much <at all>
whatdoihavetosay
[when] she is no longer
^listen^ing^ ^^
}}wooden}} {{chimes{{
cl _an _ k  around
like her° name° in° my° head°
& her-voice-in-my-chest
₩hen you've had her
in your skin\ \ bones\ \ breath
once she's.             gone.....
what's.    really.
¿left.

¿how to¿
make _ peace _ w/ _ time
<that
bitter sense**
of-the-moments-which
grate\my\bones
<some
end~less~ re~ver~ie
#whereyouare
& if there. are. any.
thoughts> of> me
<maybe
[it's just me]
or may _ be it's }} {obsess}ing
& i'm stuck || stalled ||
<here
my^ hand^ in^ the^ air^
be>gg>ing <[> for
¥our
<scru° tin°   y°

it's × burnt × toast
&allofthethings;
you. let. go.
until _ _ there is [   nothing.  ]
}tohold{
& you-don't-know
if the ~salt~~water~
really matters
it could. be. the. waves.
the cl°ink°° of the ice
in ^her ^cocktail
or >her >eyes >or >her >nose
¿who knows?
a \ NY \way\
what-does-it-matter-now
{haditever}
| whatever |she wanted
》ebbs》《 and 》《flows》
her £ips
~ your ~mo~uth~~
&
#gone

you. know.
just _ how
to bring me
tomyknees
it >must >please >you >so
& you\tease\ it
the-whole-while;
₩** knows. me. so. ₩ell.
i can't "tell" if i even
care 》《to 》《breathe
this {need} is
killing
| me |

need to  | cease |
{to fit}
so _ per°fect°ly°
inyourneck
beg. to. forget.
your > fingGgeRs
in\my\hair\
so  #hungry
& ¥et so
~del~i~cate~
i-no-longer-want
to feel your sm _ ile
inmyskin
make. it. stop.
{this needing you}
it's-something-i-can't
feed &
it's | starving |
me
[    hollow.  ] bruised
&    sore  
don'tknow
what ^this ^ breath 》《 ing
is. for.
} stuck { between
your hazel
& the || door;
don'treallyknow
what-i-know
any __ *more