It was im//pos//sible from the start
..but my god...
...You were delicious
I have held you in my
mouth...
I have held you on my
...tongue
I have spilled my words and my
...heart
As you rest there against my
teeth//
I tasted your letters and I drank your
Loves
And now I'm just here
........starving.

I think I dreamed you up...probably/maybe
it's the whiskey
Here one minute...late night phone calls....then
gone
-------it's only an illusion
I'm stuck on----
That would be the gentler truth...any other...
than your vanishing...
cause you knew all the authors...we chimed
in on
...stanzas
You had no idea; how much it all
mattered...
I so caught up
...I weaved you words polished in wine
to be greeted by...
silence...
left/a/lone
to write sappy lines....

How I woulda, coulda,...shoulda...

taken.my.time.

you have a phenomenal...smile.., close to
a...**** eating grin, really...of epic proportions...it says...I know fuckingshit you don't know... and... I wanna color and do
Play-Doh with you...and when you share
it...well...one can feel...absolutely certain...
that you have carnal knowledge
of...every...inch...of...skin...and that
you...can...smell...the wet...between
the legs...at the sound...of your name...
and it's all swimming together in one...
marvelous...grin...and all at once...it's
******* lovely...

I don't think... I.am.s orry are the right.
3. words to choose
They can't retract/remove/retrace the wreck
of all the ones I used
Oh/my/I couldn't help myself; Your voice was a sunrise
your words Neptune

Hearing you,Hearing you...Reading you,...reading
you,...reading you...

There was no other way this could go
...regardless of wisdom
and the light of ageless truths...of distance and time.//you
should know; passionate women are always
going. to. be. so,..
and with reckless abandon...
[the more it doesn't make
A
N
Y
sense] the hyper! incessant! flashing! green!
light! in my head...just blink-blink-blinking
me to keep spilling...the...letters/words/language/said...

{that.should.have.just.stayed.in.my.head}

and so here we are...it WAS the cru{foolish}
elest lie...when I tossed you my banner: I said
I.have.nothing.to.lose.
...so very wrong...I lost it all; and now I
don't
even
have someone to
Cry over Clementine
with.

The eternity of moments...waiting
mo...ments.....
does she know what I
meant?...well it means everything,.. but
that's too much...If only I could have
stopped
...my silly heart overtakes my head
and my hands,... just keep
writing....it...
down.  Keep spilling...my words and
soul,,, turned inside out//exposed///
Howmuch- howgood-howunique...to feel a
kindred...heart...
SPlattER...my silly heart all
over the page and ...handing.it.over.
a coffee mug stain
of shameless/vulnerable/bold/
Really,...and now
we know
just ill advised... because,...everyone
knows,...
truth/passion/romance
died
long ago... and all of the words... are just too
much,...
too, too, too
much

You can't...really blame her;...it was fall
and,...so...she fell...Tripping along through
Clementine and Nin.,,,the sweet seduction
of...this stanza,...these words//yes,..{yes}
I feel it, too/two/to...
Stumbling...through...the
wanting ...to.hear.her.voice,,..//shared//..,,heart
breaking;...with Ray and soaring with Zoe,...taking the
leap..,,///
~There aren't many out
there who care so much about words~...she
so s.t.u.ck. in my head...crash to my knees,...
the{oh ****}landing//that h u r t s
...but the rush,..the way down....the
weightlessness,...short eternal
flight.  Soaring// through space;
...bird
...heart beat.
Counting
time,... it's everything,..and it's everything..to have
a falling heart is to have...
everything...
Every
Thing.

Morning walk...you know how I covet
sunrise...and eucalyptus...the damp and
the salt....[oh, how I am drawn to
fishes]...sherbet streaks through a
retreating
dark. A new day...
a new fate...
Mind drifts://colors fade from
sight;...and left with Me...
reaching across a
table; *******...gently
...slowly,... so de//li//cious the
moment...Guide the hair that has
fallen...across your face.. a vague
interruption. ..to our eyes locked in a
stare.  and there is no sound//all light//stillness//eyes
speaking volumes,...eyes have so much to say;in these
moments,..
,,.....In these seconds,... there is and has
only ever been the two of us...you and I in a timeless gaze,...and
...only so slightly aware of the scattering of atoms, stirred by...Me...
reaching across a
table; *******...gently
...slowly...so bound in the
moment...Guide the hair that has fallen....