What if I did
What I didn’t want to do
How many years
Would it be
That I would of lost you
All of you
The people I love the most
How many years would it be
If I went through
And took my life alone?

I would fail to see my nephew
Little baby Micah
I would fail to see my sister
Leave that hurtful guy
I would fail to see my brother
Graduate in black and red
Even miss his bootcamp ship date
As I hug him to death

If I went through
With my own personal death
I would miss all the people I love
And those that hurt me
No second chance
If I wen through
My endless sleep
I would fail to find you
The girl of my dreams
What if I went through with it?
Imagine all the things I’ll miss
But that’s the beauty of it
I went through and lived

If you need to cry
I won’t judge or hide
I’ll hold you tight
And wipe the tears from your eyes
As you say goodbye
As each drop is released
And all of your pain shall decease

If you ever feel alone
Don’t you worry darling
I’ll rush right home
Right to your arms
So you can know
That you are
Forever in my heart

If you feel unheard
I won’t shrink or cut you short
I’ll sit to listen to your words
And let all your worries
Fall off your shoulders
Cause you’ve been carrying
A rock bigger than a two ton stone
Don’t worry darling, I’ll be here
I’ll forever listen
Even when you’re healed

If you ever have joy
I’ll uplift you smile
And let it show
Because it’s the cutest of the all
I’ll trace it with permanent marker
And paint it with gold
And diamonds where your teeth should be
Because it shines brighter
Than any flashlight I know

If you need a friend
Or a lover instead
Don’t worry darling, I’m here
And I’ll be there
Just touch your heart
And let it beat and thump
Feel it pulse
And feel your scars
I’ll kiss each one
Until they are healed
I’ll make sure
That for a man
You shall never kneel

Don’t worry darling, I’m here

I want something real
Something entirely new
Something I can’t find
On tik tok or the news
On Instagram or the book
I want something different
It doesn’t have to be
Out of the blue
But I see the same thing
Everyone follows the same rues
Without noticing their trace
A cookie cut personality
And an eyesight for fame
I want something new
Something I can’t find
On this earthly plain
But luckily I found the new
And it has a new face
She’s soft like warm pillows
And in her arms I want to lay
I have found something real
Someone whose more than a cute face
I found someone to let my heart loose
Rather than having it run in place

I have met someone new
And she’s nothing like you
Golden tan to winter white
Is how her skin goes
From where she gets direct sunlight

I have met someone new
Her beauty is something
You don’t come close to
Her eyes can mesmerize
Even the strongest willed guy

I have met someone new
That I won’t deny
The way she makes me feel
Feels like I’ve been searching for
My whole life

I have met someone new
You’ll never come close To her compare
Her soul is too vibrant
And straight is her hair
Beautiful is her name
And to my love shes the heir

I want to get to know
More than your flesh and sins
I want to cut your vessel
And glimpse inside your soul
Carefully trace your edges
As my lips are a knife
To break you from this tarnished mold

I want to know more
Of your heart and your core
To know what makes your heart beat
And know what makes it hurt
So when it is in pieces
I can pick up those that fall
And glue them with my aura
Cement them with love
Cure them with kisses
And dry it with my hugs

I want to get to know you
And all that you’re about
Know exactly when you’re about to smile
And learn to tell when you are mad
To know when you’re distress
So I can bring you peace
Know when you’re a wreck
Battling like a ship at sea

I want to know how to calm your waves
And bring tranquility
Kiss you on your forehead
Right before we sleep
I want to know
More than to bring you peace
More than to make you smile
I want to know how
To manifest my last name
Into ours

How do you expect to grow
When you don’t get any light
My little sunflower
There’s always light
Just smile
You’ll be alright

How do you expect to grow
My little English rose
When you shrivel in the cold
Created on this summer day
When you think you’re alone

How do you expect to grow
My beautiful water Lilly
When your base doesn’t touch your life
We all get lost sometimes
Sink in your roots
In the pond of life

How do you expect to grow
My little ray of sunshine
The sun does set
At the end of the day
But remember
There’s always another
Sunrise