If she could go back, she thinks --

She would open her eyes, instead of her heart.

The stars are brilliant at this time of night
and I wander these streets like a ritual I don’t dare to break
for darling, the times are quite glorious.

Do you know what it is like,
to lie in bed awake;
with thoughts to haunt
you every night,
of all your past mistakes.

Knowing sleep will set it right -
if you were not to wake

With its stillness and constellations
Your silence is that of a star
As remote and candid
I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
Distant and full of sorrow
So you would've died
One word then, One smile is enough
And I'm happy;
Happy that it's not true

Don't worry love...
This Sadness...
It won't last forever.

Boom!
Oh no... There goes my heart again

Her eyes are the galaxy, but all you are looking at is the sun.

They said she couldn't do it. So she became it.

I am what I choose to be.
Not What I used to be.

Look at
how deeply flawed
we are
and yet
capable of loving
so perfectly

4 am alone and on my own.
These are my finest moments.
I scrub my skin
to rid me from
you
and I still don’t know why I cried.
It was just something in the way you took my heart and rearranged my insides and I couldn’t recognize the emptiness you left me with when you were done. Maybe you thought my insides would fit better this way, look better this way, to you and us and all the rest.
But then you must have changed your mind
or made a wrong
because why did you
leave?
6 months, 2 weeks, 4 days,
and I still don’t know which month it was then
or what day it is now.
I replace cafés with crowded bars and empty roads with broken bottles
and this town is healing me slowly but still not slow or fast enough because there’s no right way to do this.
There is no right way to do this.

What disturbs me is that people fear death

You were the rain
I was the ground  
And You fell
For me
Hard
And you made me
Run with you
To the stream
Till we
Both
Floated
Away

Dear Dad,
I
  Am
     So
Sorry
    For
       Not
         Being
What
   You
    Wanted me
       To
   BE

I'm the girl who stutters...
But...
I fell in love with...
The boy who mutters

So, I go to the Ocean. To say goodbye. One last time.

I scare myself

If a man cannot understand the beauty of life, it is probably because life never understood the beauty in him.

When he left
He never knew--
He took a little girls heart too

Don't ever apologize for the way your eyes have never stopped shining.

The only reason I left you is that I was afraid you would leave me first. And...
To
be
honest
That
Is
My
Worst
Nightmare.

Him: I understand, I dated a girl once that got rap-
Me: No. Stop. You don't understand. You don't understand what it's like to have every inch of dignity ripped away like that, that you hold so dearly. By the very man you were taught to love. The man that your father trusted and your mother grew up with. He tore open not only my legs, or my heart.. but my soul...  I am not ready. Do not say you understand because of one person's issues. I am me. Not her. So ******* stop.

Do you know what it is like,
to lie in bed awake;
with thoughts to haunt
you every night,
of all your past mistakes.

You are my everything.
But Also my lonely nights. You are every single tear rolling down my face...
But
I love you.
Isn't that enough?

Tonight I can write the saddest lines
I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.

As I jumped out of a 20 story building...
I did not think of my death at the moment. I thought of how wonderful it was to fly.


That my dear. Is what falling in love is like.

The fall was beautiful
The crash was wonderful

Suddenly this defeat.
This rain.
The blues have gone gray
And the Browns have gone gray
And yellow
A terrible amber.
In the cold streets
Your warm body.
In whatever room
Your warm body.
Among all the people
Your absence
The people who are always
Not you.
I have been easy with trees
Too long.
Too familiar with mountains.
Joy has been a habit.
Now
Suddenly
This rain.