What is death??
Death is end of life
Are we ever ready??
No, we are never ready for death
Some taken to soon, some taken at the wrong time
Left to leave loved ones with questions
Why??
Why so early??
Why so young??
Why couldn't my baby live to see 18??
Why is what were left with??
Broken hearts of whys..
Pain filled hearts with so many unanswered questions
Memories is what's left
Why does death become us??
Why are we scared of the unknown life after death??
What is the after life like??
Why cant someone tell me??
Life after death is it real?
What is death?? You ask
I ask too.
What is death??

Near and far you break my heart
Far and wide u stomp it like theres no regret
Wide and high u take all my breathe
High and low u belittle my love
Low and slow u **** me softly
Slow and fast u make me die
Fast and hard you too me in to
Hard and soft I cry over you
Soft regret I make it known
Regret ever being with you
Ever so lonely
Lonely cause of you.

I see a smile
That's struggling to laugh
A laugh thats struggling to make a giggle,
A giggle that won't bring tears,
Tears that are wanting to run, running tears down her face,
A beauitful face that deserves better
Better than the hand that is dealt
A beauitful face full of pain
Pain that only a beauitful face can hide
Hiding a broken heart
All behind a beauitful face

Little boy Blue where did your smile go
Sweet and pure
Little boy Blue where did your smile go
Perfect as the sun
Bright as the moon
Little boy Blue where did your smile go
Perfect smile with your lip stuck out
When did you turn so blue??

Little boy blue I see you
Little boy blue your smiling now
Little boy blue ia it really you
Little boy blue your not so blue
Little boy blue your eyes so bright
Little boy blue, there's joy in your sight
Little boy blue is it really you
Little boy blue could it be real the smile you smile
Little boy blue it really is you
I cant believe your happy now, but for how long my little boy blue??
Little boy blue keep smiling and I will too

I promise you
One day without a Doubt
You will be mine

I wonder...
How you sleep at night...
Knowing what you did...
I wonder....
How do you feel...
Since,  you left me there...
There to die..
Without a tear in your eye....
I wonder...
What was going through ur head....
Was it I wasn't real???
I wonder...
Was I a trash bag u thought u ran over,
A rock,  a glass bottle???
I wonder...
If you know I was only 5...
Would have been 6 on Saturday...
I wonder....
What the rest of my life would be like....
Prom,  college,  having babies of my own...
I wonder....
What would my big sisters become???
How many babies they would have...
What life would have brought them...
I wonder...
Will my mommies heart ever heal???
From the void you left her??
The heart u left shattered...
The guilt u left her with..
That this is all her fault...
I wonder...
Will my daddy ever heal too...
You took away his little girl...
Left him with Guilt too..
I wonder...
What 1st grade would be like....
All the new things I would learn..
What new songs would I get to learn and sing???
What art projects would I make for mommy and daddy???
I wonder...
But,  you took that from me, my family,  my friends,  everyone who loved me...
Those who I haven't yet to meet..
I wonder...
Who I would have grown to be...
How I wonder...
These things I will never get to know..
You took this all from me...
From  my family...
From all those who loved me...
From those who have not yet met me...
I wonder...
Will u ever answer my questions...
Do even care you killed me??
How I wonder??
I wonder...
Wondering is all I have left...
I'm looking down from heaven wondering why you did this...
Wondering is all I can do..
I wonder...
What if I was your daughter??
Would you have walked away too??  
I wonder...
I wonder....

Write by Tina Marie 7/19/2017