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Timo Kat Dec 2014
The same shadow you carried with you
is still wearing me.
The light is on, dispatching a dim warmth,
to keep ghosts away.
And the ink on the paper isn't dry yet.

The same aura you left me with
is still roaming in the air.
My bed is made, the red blanket is on it,
so are the two black cushions.
And the dust is covering all of them.

The same song you found me dead to
is still playing on repeat.
I left the keys to my room on the second shelf
next to my broken mug.
And the door doesn't have a lock anyways.

The same stench you made out of me
is still infiltrating our memories.
The pictures that hang on my walls
are fatigue and ashen.
And your face is turning into a blur.
Timo Kat Dec 2014
Let the rain fall over my head
Take my hands and put me in bed

I tried reading, I tried counting sheep
Sing me a song so I fall asleep

My hands are sweating, hug me instead
Play with my hair like my mom always did

Don't leave and stay until the morning
Until the sun rises, and the birds start singing
And the rain stops, stay until the morning
Until the sun rises, and the birds start singing

And don't forget; after you walk out of my bed
To open my windows and kiss me in my forehead
Timo Kat Dec 2014
If I ever understood what home meant,
  then she is the person who planted
                                      the definition in my head,
                                          who carved it in my heart,
                                          who waters it
                                              so it grows and never dies
                                          who built a cover for it
                                              so it doesn't fly or fade away,
                                          who made a lock for it
                                              so it won't escape,
                                          who made a key for it
                                              so she can visit it whenever she wants
                                  and who keeps it safe,
                                              and that if she herself
                                                      is not my home.
Timo Kat Dec 2014
Home is nothing but a feeling we once had.
We unfortunately lost the memory of it,
but we keep on searching for that feeling
again and again, hoping we will reach it.
It is where the ultimate happiness lies.
We realize it when it is long gone,
and then we go through the same process again.
Timo Kat Dec 2014
Where I’m from,*
               unlike what Willie Perdomo says,
                        she might know
                                   where I was from.

Where I’m from,
                we love the breath of whispers.
                         My mom would sing and rhyme
                                   in the ears of my little sisters.

                She would hum and mumble,
                         my dad would whistle,
                                   they would never grumble
                                             until we fall asleep.

Where I’m from,
               we greet with
                          "guten morgen"
                                     to everyone in the breakfast’s table,
               and we smile and say,
                          "takk for maten"
                                     for those who serve the food.

Where I’m from,
            we play with colors for Holi,
                       we fast Ramadan,
                                  we celebrate Christmas.

Where I’m from,
                 we wish you Happy birthday
                               in more than 90 languages,
                                        and these are the advantages;
                              we make you a strawberry cake,
                         we even make you a card,
      but we might throw you in a lake,
or prank you very hard.

Where I’m from,
          we say,
                 “Ni hao ma?”
                           For the person living next door,
when we leave
          we say,
                “hasta luego mi amor.”

Where I’m from,
                we love the breath of whispers,
          she whispers,
                         “habibi, waheshtini.”
          I reply,
                         "I missed you more,"
          and add
                         “Ma armastan sind.”

Where I’m from,
           the smell of your kisses
                      plays with my senses
               so,
                      I could hear your hair,
                   I could taste your beauty,
                I could see your wintry smell
               and I could touch the echo of
                               I love you
              spelled out from your mouth.
Timo Kat Dec 2014
After six Tuesdays
and exactly four days
She stood there
waving goodbye
I was leaving

Six Tuesdays before
and exactly four days
We knew that
she will stand there
waving goodbye
and I will be leaving
Timo Kat Dec 2014
The rain drops didn't fall when I woke up early this morning;
neither had they fallen yesterday, nor the day before.
It was ten to 8:00 and I wasn't rushing anyone for the shower.
The same old bowl of cereals, the same amount of milk,
and a bit of strawberry jam, but not the same taste.

I am hiding behind walls and trees. Suddenly,
I am no longer happy to be under the sun.
No penguin-walking or careful steps to go to class.
No “good morning” smiles, no warm hugs,
no afternoon tea and no big chocolate bars.

No sticky notes on my table saying, “I was here” or “See you at dinner”.
No other cheese sandwich for evening snack.
And no birthday parties past midnight.
The chill air of September evenings is long gone.
The starry sky and aurora borealis are also long gone.

There is only the moon at nights, so bright but yet so lonely;
my only companion, the only friend through the darkness.
There might be some rain this Sunday, or that is what forecast predicts;
maybe that, with the last “Kvikk Lunsj” chocolate bar I have;
maybe that, with a cup of peach flavored tea;

Maybe then and only then, I will feel home again.

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