My judgement is cloudy , my thoughts are not letting me sleep soundly. My fears are catching up to me, trust has been something I don't give out so easy. My days are darker and my nights are a lot longer, all the things i have been through have broken me and I'm struggling at becoming any stronger. Inside I'm screaming, inside I am barely breathing. I put a smile on my face and I try to hold it together, but I feel so alone waiting for it to get better. Only trying to believe what I feel and what I see, grasping onto what's left of my reality.  Sometimes the happiest ones don't seem happy at all, even the strongest one have times that they fall.

The struggles she's been through have made it hard to live happily. They've held and hold her back at times preventing her from moving forward at a steady pace.
  The struggles have taught her to be strong , but it comes with a very high cost. She has built a fortress around her heart hoping No one gets too close. Although she wants so bad too be able to let somebody in. She may be subconsciously pushing away the one man who is trying so hard to help her back on her feet. He is at her side and loving her oh so patiently.
   Even when the waves come crashing in at full force, he is still right there with an undeniable strength. The waves continually knocking her over,the pressure with each wave so devastating its hindering her ability to breathe.
   All the while he is still placing her soundly onto her feet,the waves not even appearing too make him slightly weak at the knees.
   Never giving up on her although it has to be undoubtedly exhausting. His stature never letting that show, also never failing to prove the value of his consistency.
    Encouraging her to push and shove her way through all the chaos that this cruel world has for her along the way. She is becoming more aware of who this man is and all the efforts he makes and the worth of the words he speaks to her letting her know he is there to stay.
   Truth of the matter is without him in her life these struggles would've been the anchor bound to make her sink.The internal war she faces is a war she cannot face alone. She just wishes he truly knew just how much she needs and wants him at her side,  for he is expressing to  her an epic love amongst many remains unknown.
    She will forever be grateful for everything this one man has been offering nothing but his complete honesty, his gentle touch,maintaining the patience she needs.
   the way he makes her all her problems seem to fade, and the way he never ceases to make her laugh or put a smile on this broken girls face. Letting her know she can count on him to be there even through extremes.The one that is around to protect and support her ensuring her heart's safe.