Zachary: Poems

Zachary May 2017

This coffin I have made
A certain kind of hell
Inside I lay
Here I will stay
I will stay here
Stay here I will

The beast
The name of which
Serves to send chills
Down the spine
Dismembered

Sensation remembered
To life I am brought
Crawling back to the idea
The idea of you
I shed like skin
No shame this time
In death wrought

Tick tick tick
The hammer drives deep
The thud keeps time
The sound drives deep
Eyes closed
Needing sleep

Ember waves

Zachary May 2017

Ember waves

These waves crash over me
Soft sounds surround me
This is the epitome of
You dying right here beside me

These things I've always known
To me you have slowly shown
And like the wind to the seed
I sweep you up and scatter thee

Birds sing in sweet cacophony
Be free, be free, be free
The rush, a staccato melody
Rising, rising, rising
Lifting, pushing, gently clenching
Crashing
Down
All
Around
Us
Darkness surrounds
Us
Love abounds
Us
As does the joy of being free

Swing low sweet baritone timbre
And akin to leaves mid September
Burn bright orange like the fire
And leave naught behind but ember

Father

Zachary May 2017

Father

Why'd you have to go and die
So that you could never see
That the best parts of you
Were the worst parts of me
You left me so alone
With everything to prove
Anytime I'd get close
We'd be forced to move
Never had a chance to learn
The things you had to teach
Anytime I needed you
You were out of my arm's reach
Today I stand here broken
With my heart that never grew
My love cannot be spoken
And it's all because of you

Shatter

Zachary May 2017

Shatter

All the pieces
Such a mess abounds
In a cold dank room
They scatter all around
Would you take this from me?
Asks the facelessness
The man with no eyes
His arms outstretched
No mouth to tell no lies
Could you help me?
No hands to stifle his cries
All these pieces
No way to pick them up
No glue to hold them
No eyes to behold them
Could you help me?

Spinning

Zachary May 2017

Spinning

Twirling round and round
The heart beating next to me
Belongs to whom I hold close to me
Soft words drift back and forth
Round and round
The heart says something
The spinning ceases
Water wells up rapidly
A dam just broke somewhere deep
The heart stops spinning
says father why do you weep
No answer to be heard
Just the muffled choking
Daddy are you ok
Yes son
Just surprised by what you say
I want our family whole too
There just has to be a way
Somehow someway
There will come a day
But not today my boy
Not today

The dry place(bloodless)

Zachary May 2017

The dry place(bloodless)

Dust in my eyes
This place is dry
Dry enough to ****
I'm choking still

Sitting side by side
With my apathy
At the moment
The only friend to me

How do I escape this place?
Lidless eyes watching me
Asking questions their own
Sitting high in a tree

My skin is crumbling
My blood is leaving
No more than mud
Crimson clay at my feet.

So I walk on
Bloodless
Waiting
For the monsoon to take me

— The End —