As I sit on a rock near the river,
I watch the water float by,
Darker Is It then my soul.
I feel this utter bliss when I'm sitting close by nature.
Taking In the scent,
Releasing my worries, and doubts.
Happiness over whelms me and fore once I feel like I belong here.

The blade accidentally rips open my vein,
I'm not ready to die.
My world becomes blurry,
My heart slows down..
I just wanted answers to my pain,
I'm not ready to die,
"Please, help me" I scream, but no one hears.
I'm not ready to die I say,
As I fade away Into sweet bliss.

I've been trapped In the past fore far to long,
Maybe forginess will find me somewhere down this road.

I wave at my demons, as I run away with happiness.
I've lived In this darkness fore far to long,
I'm ready to leave, and now I'm moving on.

I am from the brokenness, from lies within the darkness.
I am from the needy, the saddened, from the harsh cold seasons.
I am from the traditions that are never celebrated.
The chips that no one wants, and the hatred demons that haunt your nights.

From "you won't ever be good enough" to "just go away"
I am from the lack of trying, because my best Is never great.
I am from moving there to leaving here,
Memories are faded, fore mine aren't the greatest.

Sitting on a rock, by the river, watching people pass by,
The air Is cool and the water looks tempting.
Maybe If I ever so slowly walk In, no one will notice that I have disappeared.

Don't rip my heart out, If there's nothing for you In It.
Don't enter my walls If you're not ready fore the brokeness.

Is It pointless to sit here and fond over the things we can not have, challenge our self to the unexpected, and think about a life that we all know we can't have?  
No.
What's pointless Is thinking that you can never accomplish the greater things In life.

I hope you don't make the same mistakes as me.
  Don't you let yourself fall for the empty words or let yourself sink slowly Into the dark sadness In your life.
  I hope you never let the little glimmer of hope you have glowing Inside your soul go out.
  And I beg you to never push away a hand that cares and then question why you're lonely.
                                      And don't you dare become
                                      your own worst enemy
                                      because It's a battle you'll
                                      never win.

I get choked up when I think about It, how the memories don't seem to add up.
A pit In my stomach that never quits, Tears swell up In my eyes.
It's something only a smile can disguise.