Things I'm good at:
- Keeping A grades
- Public speaking
- Making people happy
- Pretending to be okay
- Sleeping
- Making a fool of myself
- ******* up my body
- ******* up other people's life
- Crying
- Giving up

Things I'm bad at:
- Guitar
- Patience
- Managing my emotions
- Self control
- Self care
- Sleeping
- Socializing
- Communicating
- Being a good friend
- Being a good "daughter"
- Being a good Christian
- Being a good person
- Being a person
- Being anything

- Poetry?

i spoke of her as if she was a language.  
like latin, her name never died on my tongue.
if i had known earlier how our conversations exhausted her,
the weight of what i left unspoken looms over me.
perhaps, that was always the problem.
i wanted to translate my entire soul,
but she was never as curious about me.