NAN
You write about heartbreak, then comedy.
Opening up, only to close yourself in fear.
You write about happiness, then about losing and longing.
As you lie and try to convince yourself, erasing your desire.

ADP
In those early morning hours, I create my own galaxy.
A place free of fear, free of losing, free of loving.
For every moment of longing becomes a star,
tainting my perfect cosmos with memories.

NAN
You create imaginations, mechanisms of coping.
You build your walls high, they make me want to climb it.
You build your galaxy, full of gloom and curiosity,
   a mysterious code I want to decipher.

ADP
Two kids lay in the stars, dreaming.
As if dreams could erase hunger.
Two adults lay in the stars, loving.
As if love could stop time.
Two souls become one,
Until two becomes one . . forever alone.
All that is left is broken, ugly and spiteful what is there to decipher ?

NAN
I want to see . . .
   Each window past, present and now.
I want to see. . .
   The happiness that oozes from your lips.
I want to see. . .
   The dark and unrelenting sea of your depression.
I want to smell. . .
   perfumes, coffee on your breath, and your 1 am scent.
I want to feel. . .
   the pain in your heart and the pulse of its song.

I want you.

- NAN & A Dead Poet ✌

𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓺𝓾𝓲𝓵𝓲𝓽𝔂?
    When I live in past glory. . .
           past loves . . .
                past friendships. . .
clinging to hope. . .
  pulled by your chains,
      I am a slave.

Will leaving you be good for me?
    I look in the mirror,
           I don't recognize myself
                I am reduced to nothingness,

Will you be in someones arms tonight?
     I lay, the sun rises.
          My heart breaks,
             I am nothing.

Take me back to you,
   ensnare me,
           love me,
      Never let me go.

In love with what I can't have,
    I reach out in the night,
             under cosmic oceans
                    over ferocious seas,
                       drowning in these tears,
                                                I beg for more. . .
drawn together. . .
          in this deadly, broken, lovely ℂ𝕦𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥 ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙˙ॱ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙˙ॱᐧ.˳˳.⋅
                 - forever in love

and the fallen
   rays
of sunshine that ooze,

pale
to your light,
and your warmth.

𝓃𝑜𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝑜𝓃𝑔𝑒𝓇,
   𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓵𝓸𝓼𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓯    
              𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒽𝓊𝓂𝒶𝓃 𝒾𝓃 𝓎𝑜𝓊
                                         𝓸𝓹𝓮𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽
                                            & 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷

𝒲𝒾𝓈𝒽 𝓊𝓅𝑜𝓃 𝒶 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇,
    𝒶 𝓂𝒶𝓅 𝑜𝒻 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝓇𝑒
       𝓉𝒾𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒹𝑜 𝓌𝑒𝓁𝓁
               𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓌𝒾𝓈𝒽 𝓊𝓅𝑜𝓃 𝒶 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇
                                 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓻𝓮

You who never tires, who is always there.
    
You who never lies, who always tells the truth.

You who loves unconditionally, who I seek to replicate.

You who is always there, who I run for your embrace.

You who ages, who I miss everyday.

You are the sadness of my soul,
   the reflection in the mirror,
      a reminder that you are gone.
         Let me sleep until we meet again.
                  -𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻