I carry a lot on my shoulders and in my head,
Sometimes the pressure makes me wish I were dead,
Because the screaming in my head never really stops,
Until the first tear finally drops

I carry it all for I have no other choice,
I grew as a boy without his own voice,
Even now thinking is such a hard task,
So all I have are endless questions that I never ask,

When it gets too much, I start to lose control,
The other part of me, my inner animal,
Takes over me to get the job done,
To hurt those that hurt me. Every single one.

Drowning in the ambiance of the night sky,
Tucked in a blanket lit by starlight,
In our own world when we look in each others eyes
Lying in the grass illuminated by fireflies

I try to look away but to no avail,
There's no point in trying if I'm going to fail,
So I take it in whenever I have the chance,
To stand still and steal a glance

But reality must sink in before it's too late,
For being together is not our fate,
I open my eyes to the real world again,
Another day to go through in heart wrenching pain

I look into the mirror to see what I've become
Help is what I need so I am reaching out for some
But for every time I open my mouth to speak
My mind crumbles and my words become weak

My friends say I'm changing and not for the better
That I'm drowning in my words, beneath  every letter
That they no longer recognise the person that I am
And soon there'll be nothing left of this little lamb

My mind is tearing itself right down the middle
What's left of it, I fear may be less than just a little
I'm no longer proud of the man I am today
For my choices always put  my mind  in harm's way