hey guess what
i won











i really did love you more

I dreamt of you again last night
haven't done that in a few months
but **** does it hurt










I wonder if you ever dream of me

remember when you loved me?











i do











i'm scared it was all in my imagination












how do i know i ever knew you if all i have are pictures














it feels like a fever dream



















i wish i never woke up

It's crazy to me
How one day
You can go to a crate
Say "this one"
And you'll have 15 years
Of joy
Just like that

Pure happiness
In a being







Until one day





















They die

I know I am lucky though
To have something so great
That I would grieve for

i generally didn't know it was possible to feel this much pain












i guess you truly were my first of everything

silenced, unheard
bite your tongue till you feel it bleed
you mustn't be heard, only seen
never truly believed
nor will your screams be freed
for that's what it means
to be one of a society