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1.0k · Apr 2018
I am a ticking timebomb..
Im a ticking timebomb...
Beep beep beep
Any minute the emotions go...
Causing disturbance and watching it.....flow...
Beep beep beep
Each second the time goes down...
20...19...18...
Im a ticking timebomb...
Beep beep beep
On one point ready to blow...
17... 16... 15...
The time slowly ticking down...
I fear as though my time is short...
Im a ticking timebomb...
Beep beep beep
Any minute the emotions go...
14... 13... 12...
My time is almost up...
I fear I won't say goodbye...
11... 10... 9...
I am a ticking time bomb...
Beep beep beep
Trying to stop my fuse....
8... 7... 6...
To find my life was a blast...
Time to sit back and give up...
5... 4... 3...
Its time for me to say my final goodbye....
2... 1...
I am a ticking time bomb...
Beep beep beep
On an endless trail of death although my life is short it was worth it...
I am a ticking time bomb...
Here to say I'm sorry...
The poem I am a ticking time bomb refers to the life of us slowly living our life slowly and in the end as we hit our last breath of air we apologize for all the wrong that we've done in our life.
402 · May 2018
Death..
Death death all i see
All i ever want for me is..
Death **** me God
Let him take me
Show my guts
Let the blood go flow
Watch me puke up blood
And watch that faithful dove
Fall...
Hurdle down towards earth
Watch it crash and explode
Blood flies in your mouth
And you smile
You aren't a freak
Just scared
But they call you one
**** them all
Not a freak just mad
Watch them burn
Not a freak
Just likes fire
**** yourself
Watch your guts spill
And tell him so
Your nothing to me
I hope he takes your life
Because you only have one thing..
You only have..
Death
This is my first gruesome poem i shared it with a couple of my friends and one of them almost threw up from it so.... yea... this is just a test..
319 · Apr 2018
Life of The Child...
Growing up I saw a lot...
I saw pain and misery...
I lost my mind and went insane...
I killed my best friend die...
Watched my grandma pass away...
Saw my friend get hurt...
Saw her...
Fall before me....
I cried and cried...
Cried for hours cried for days...
I was dropped on my head 3 times...
I was born a month early...
When I was told...
When...
She told me...
My brother is going to prison...
I cried and cried...
I make my promise...
Not to lie...
Not to die...
Not to give up...
I hold one person close...
As he is my happiness...
I want to hold her close...
But I can't...
I just cry and cry...
I want her in my life...
But they say no...
They say no...
They say...
I say yes...
She makes me complete...
Makes me whole...
Makes me smile...
Makes me happy...
If only I could hold her close...
I wouldn't cry...
I would smile...
They say I'm not in love..
But they don't know...
I found out some crucial news...
My stepdad...
He is cheating on my mom...
I cried and cried...
I hate him I really do...
I don't understand why....
He is bad...
Blames me for things that I don't do...
He turns my own mom against me...
He hurts me...
He...
There is a line you draw...
When your done...
I drew that line today...
Im not dealing with it...
He can leave...
I don't care...
Get out of my life...
Ruin someone else's life...
Just don't ruin ours...
Now you see I love my mom...
I don't want to see her hurt...
And when she is I cry...
Like last night...
I cried and I cried...
It was all because of him...
I give up...
Im letting go of the rope...
Im falling...
Lower...
And lower...
Deeper and deeper...
Into a void...
Where I can't escape...
It droves me to tears...
It makes me cry...
I'm okay...
I lie...
I just cry...
Cry...
Cry...
Age 17...
Dating a girl...
Love her so...
Dad...
Mom...
Find out...
Dad...
Pins me down...
I can't breath...
All I see...
Is my life...
Early childhood...
Age of 2...
Rock hits me in the head...
Suprisingly not...
Dead...
Age 3 fall bust my face...
Still in pain...
Age 4...
Starting school...
Rivalary for a girl...
Another Zachary...
One girl...
Two Zachs...
Yea I lost...
I smiled...
Age 5...
Got hit in the head...
It bled...
And bled...
Age 6 through 7...
...got hit in the head again...
Lost my memory...
Age 8 through 12...
I lost my childhood...
Worked in a restraunt...
Age 13 through 16...
I...don't wanna talk about that...
Age 17..
Went through depression..
Hit rock bottom...
Felt it all...
Hit a wall...
Died a bit...
Cut my wrist...
Almost died...
Met a girl...
Made me smile...
A lot...
A lot...
Made me smile A lot...
Took the pain...
Now its gone...
Made me whole...
Made me feel compete...
Feel in love...
Again and again...
Now...
We are one...
Im complete...
Happy forever...
In love...
Met my...
Other half...
This poem deals with abuse in the world parents or future parents if you have a kid discipline is good to an extent but not to where you are constantlyy hurting your child 24/7 if you have a child you must love it... Nuirture it and make it feel like it is wanted in your life...
282 · Apr 2018
The pain i feel...
I drift away....
I try to pray...
I take my knife and say I'm okay...
But I'm not...
Im in pain...
But its hard to say...
The fact that I go insane...
I hear voices...
They are yelling at me...
I see a demon...
Staring over me...
He drags me down...
Hurts me more...
Makes me cry...
Makes me mad...
Stabs my side...
Chest...
Arm...
Leg...
Sides...
Gives me scars...
Gives me wounds that will not heal...
Makes me bleed...
Makes me give...
Makes me fall...
The voices tell me to go...
Go...
Go...
All I have to do...
Is just say no...
But I don't...
I just look down and cry..
I just give up...
I just give up and...
Die...
This is a depressing poem I wrote a while back like 2 to 3 years ago...
261 · Apr 2018
H...
H... the word I can't say because every time I try to say the word H... I stutter and stop because when I try to say it I can't even think my mouth goes numb from me getting to caught up in this stupid word
H... Hmph who needs it not me I don't need this pitiful word H... I never need it but I try to say it H... I just try... H... H... H... What is wrong with me.?

H... Is just a saying
H... Is just something you say to someone who's made you mad but you don't ever mean it...
H... Is something you would say to your parents when they won't let you go to a party or date a girl
H... Something I have to agree to disagree with it gets me every time

I will say I have to H... Something myself I totally do not like myself one bit
H... Is a strong word... But that's okay because we use it in everyday life H... I can't H... It right I can't H... A word I can't even say right...
Although I can't H... The word I can mildly dislike it
We can all go with out H...in life we all make mistakes some make more than others but it's not right to H... For the mistakes they have made

For all mistakes ive made people look to me and H... I can't stand them for the H... They give me it is hard to cope in a world of H..
For it makes use feel dark deep down hiding the H.. We feel for others I just.. I just... I just don't... I JUST CANT STAND THE FACT OF THIS WORD H... THE WORLD CAN TAKE MY H... AND PUT IT ASIDE

H... H... Why do we have to H... Why can't we just have peace and love why is H... The only thing we think about is the constant H..... we feel for this world yea I said it this world this world is filled with constant H... We as people are full of ourselves relying on H... To satisfy our lives

But as I stand here I try and try again to say the word i cannot udder H... H... H... H... Why can't i say it?  I AM STARTING TO FEEL H.... I AM JUst not okay with the H... I am feeling right now....
Oh I see what is happening I am feeling it the word the H... I feel from the word H... But I will walk on and leave that word alone for a bit..

Well that's a lie and I'm sorry I am trying to stop and get rid of all my H... For that STUPID WORD H... how do I stop it how do I say this stupid word how do I say H... I just want to say it only if it means saying it once how do I say H... I am starting to H... This word

Did I ever mention my problem with the dumb things people do? I just H... The stupid things they do... Oh yes now you probably think I H... People no I just H... The stupid things they do I H... It very much so I can't stand it at all and yes going back to this people H... The stupid things I do i can say I am different from the rest yes I may be dumb I may be annoying I may be me but that gives no one the right to H... Me for being who I am...

Its so dumb to live in a world that judges you for who you are I H... This place I ******* H... IT ******* IT WHY CANT I SAY IT H... H...  (ahhhhh) H... H... H...  I don't know what to do it kills me that I am the only one who can't say this word...

I am afraid of this word I can't stand to hear it so as I go on and on I live in fear that I may one day say the word and when that day comes I will run I don't know where but I will *** from the H... I see and as I run I will H... Myself for all my life I will never forgive myself for saying this word..

If we didn't have H... We would would all live in peace, if we didn't have H... We would have no war, we have to see H... In our lives or we will all not survive... As you see no one is truly happy... Not even me I am sometimes depressed but...

...but we can't live life with H... All our lives ... This word H... Means feel intense or passionate dislike for (someone or something). So as you see you you can H... But you just can't H... Something that loves you... Because of you h... The one who loves you, you just...
... You just Hate yourself...
This poem is based on the hate we feel for each other, ourselves, and all the things in the world...
254 · May 2018
Wind
Wind

When you blow so vigorously
Are you mad?
When you don't blow
Are you upset?
And when you blow as soft as the lions mane
We all know your happy...
242 · Apr 2018
What if...
By Daniel Watson



I try.  I try so hard to do what is right but everyone makes it hard. They say life is like a box of chocolates but what if my box is empty? What if I say I'm done? What then?
You see, when I was four months old my mom and dad split up and it mentally and physically scared me. They say fifteen  is a difficult age,  but what if my whole life has been my fifteen.  
When I was four years old a very bad thing happened to me and my brothers.  Something that has been haunting me ever since despite the fact that I already forgave the people who caused it.  But what if I hadn't?  What then?
When I was merely five years old,  my dads apartment burnt down due to the neighbor falling asleep with a cigarette in his hand.  My dad woke my brothers and I up and we got out.  But what if we hadn't?  What then?
When I was six years old I rode my first roller coaster.  The first and the last roller coaster I will ever go on.  But what if I was older?  Would I have been scared?
When I was eight years old my mom got drunk and crashed the car and lost us.  The funny thing is,  the car was crashed a block away from our house.  
When I was ten years old I broke my dads window. My brother and I were wrestling and I fell into the chair and the chair went through the window.  But what if it hadn't went through the window?  What then?
When I was twelve years old I got lost in Walmart.  I was so scared and I went to customer service.  My mom came and got me.  But what if I hadn't?
When I was fifteen,  my dad sat down and talked with me about loss.  It made me realize something.  It made me realize how much people really do care. But.  What.  If. They. Didn't.
You see,  I'm going to have two words sketched on my tombstone.  What.  If.
This poem wasn't written by me it was written by my best friend Daniel Watson he is a fun JFK loving person who's alter ego amazes me in every way he may be weird but he's still cool he's a Watson if id ever seen one!
241 · Feb 2018
A Little Birdy Told Me So
A little birdy told me so
Sitting on my ledge
With a look of displeasement
But far from far fetched

He sang to himself to keep it at peace
As though he was trying to tell me something
A graceful little caw as he flew to me
Stuned me to stumble off my feet

He landed on the ground
Right next to my feet
And started to come closer to me
He look at me With a mindles stare

He kept into the air and started to caw
So I jumped to my feet to follow him
Out the door and down the street
I ran so fast to follow him

I maniac I heard as I was running
Some people even thought it was funny
And Then I saw him start to sink
I quickly began to stop and think

As I look to my right I saw her though
A beauty so unreal and magical
As soon as began to get closer my heart began to sink
So scared to say anything, so Scared to do anything

I walked up to her as she lie on the ground
And as I get closer she awakens from her sleep
Her hair blowing in the wind
The bird laying by her side

The endless memory of her
I walk up to her and grab her hand
To be here forever and till the end
To know she's my prize and my win

So as I relive this day
I will remember her beauty
And I will remember the day
A little birdy told me so
233 · Apr 2018
The Losing Smile...
Im dying inside...
Im afraid Im losing her...
Im sad when she's gone...
So what do I do...
Do I tell her how I feel...
Or do I keep it a secret forever...
Do I cry like always...
Or do I walk away...
Idk what to do anymore...
Im on the verge of giving up...
Im dying inside...
My heart isn't fully healed...
I love her...
And when she's gone Im in pain...
Im afraid...
Im afraid Im going to hurt her...
It kills me to watch her go...
Im...
Im...
Im... Done...
I give up...
All I do is hurt the one I love...
I don't deserve her...
I don't want to hurt her...
I don't deserve her if all I do is hurt her...
I want her to know I'm sorry...
I want to tell her Im hurt...
I want to tell her...
I want to tell her...
I...Wan...
I...
...Im...sorry...
This is where I say goodbye...
For this is where I leave my final cry...
My pain goes away today...
This is where I take my...
K-knife...
And drift away...
This is a poem based on a kid fearing of losing the one he treasures the most...
223 · Apr 2018
Army Army Here I Come..
Army Army here I come
Got my pistol got my gun
Watch my brothers die in combat
I just wish we'd all go back

To the days of old when we first met
But now we are all in regret
We understand the battle is home
And some are just left there alone

We fight for what our freedom
To some thats truly dumb
To most its not fun
And I am here just holding my gun

We leave the ones we love at home
Just sitting there all alone
Waiting for us to return to our camp
Waiting for us to return as a man

Althhough we are traumatised by killing
Some of us are even willing
To go out and take a life
Even though I want use my knife

My gun is what keeps me safe
Although I don't feel so great
I take my gun and charge
And into battle to stop the harm

So Army Army here I come
Got my pistol got my gun
I got my family got my friends
But its really nice that we always win
206 · Mar 2018
Im not okay...
Am I Okay?
Do I look Okay?
Do I feel Okay?
Im not okay...

Well if I say I am okay just know That's a ******* lie because me I am not one to lie on stating facts but to see me okay would be the day my life was great but no its not I am not okay and I will never be okay...

If I say I look okay just know from my false fact is I try to look okay but that will never work depression is seeping through my life and is trying to show the fact that I am not looking okay...

Me...oh well yea I feel okay but im not you need to understand that all this is leading up to a point where the walls are drenched in red and the floor is oozing feircly and everyone around is cry by the sight that I was not feeling okay...

Now as I lay on that bed I feel the pain for others that I've caused and I have prayed to god for I have sinned in his be half and taken my life to sooth the pain but to speak the truth it is the rain that has washed away the ooze on the floor and has made many more seek out for guidance on why I did but just to wonder why this kid had taken his life this day and if I was still there to day I would have said I'm not Okay...
204 · Mar 2018
Army Army
Army Army here I come
Got my pistol got my gun
Watch my brothers die in combat
I just wish we'd all go back

To the days of old when we first met
But now we are all in regret
We understand the battle is home
And some are just left there alone

We fight for what our freedom
To some thats truly dumb
To most its not fun
And I am here just holding my gun

We leave the ones we love at home
Just sitting there all alone
Waiting for us to return to our camp
Waiting for us to return as a man

Althhough we are traumatised by killing
Some of us are even willing
To go out and take a life
Even though I want use my knife

My gun is what keeps me safe
Although I don't feel so great
I take my gun and charge
And into battle to stop the harm

So Army Army here I come
Got my pistol got my gun
I got my family got my friends
But its really nice that we always win.
201 · Mar 2018
Okay...
Am I okay?
I feel okay.
Do I look okay?
No well then I guess I'm not okay.
I am not okay I mean I look okay...



For I hear the things people don't want to say I hear the past and the voices yelling at me telling me to just go die there give up telling me I'm not good enough and its not okay I guess and I wish I was okay but sometimes I feel as though I will never be okay...


I want to be okay I want to be the one who looks okay everyday I am sad I try to pull a smile and some days it works and others it don't...


Did you know they yell at me everyday?
Everyday I hear the sounds of death the tormented screams getting louder as they talk and each day I want to end the voices so if you ask if I'm okay here is what I'm going to say....

Im okay but I'm not okay cause if I was okay I would be the death of the pain and the pain is not okay...


I just want to say Im sorry I do want to be okay and I want to be okay with you but I see my past and all I see is hell living hell and I want to get over the abuse and I just can't I want to get over the divorce but I can't all I can do is pray...



All I can do is say I'm not okay.
Tbh none of this is in my life I felt the need to write it because I was thinking of all the people who have had this experience growing up...

And if you did I would like to say it will all be okay.
200 · Feb 2018
I am
I am a blue in the group of red people
I am the outcast that hangs outside the steeple

I am one who proclaims to see so but knows absolutely nothing
I am one who sees the world and sees one who means everything

I am the one who does know share his work but learns it
I am one who learns absolutely nothing and does not fit

I am the puzzle piece that will always be missing from the group
I am the one who can't help you but help you speak the truth

I am the one who is against all the gods and has seen his fate
I am the one who know his death to that very date

I am the the one who is missing that one missing glove
I am the the one who has finally sensed and found his one true love.
196 · Mar 2018
The four kids
Three lives lost in one day
Four kids in the yard ready to play
As one had walked away
Another just sat and swayed

The one who walked away saw the van pull up
The man who saw the boy jumped him by surprise
We all fear that he lost his life
Cause we all feared he had died

Another boy sat under the tree
And as he did he began to bleed
For there was a hive of bees
For know one knew he was not breathing

Another boy went for a walk
As he was running he found some chalk
But he did not see the car that was driving up
For he did in fact get strucked

The forth boy was swaying in the yard
For he really had a big dog
But the dog couldn't see at all
As the dog walked it saw the blur and killed the kid head in jaws

Now you wonder about the kid in the van
We that kid was me and now I'm a man
I was upset to see my friends dead
But to this day i wish I was dead
Cause now I just sit in regret.
190 · Apr 2018
Your love is a lie...
You say you love her more well I say that's a lie...

My love beats yours and I don't even have to say a word you may say you love her for who she is but no you only love the thought of having her she is an angel sent by the gods and you as the sinner you are wish to drain her life force and make her sad I say no you don't love her at all you just love her to use her to take advantage of her and I will say no you need to give up on the fact of her and move on...

Now you ask me if I love her...

I say Hell yea I love her I would give her the care she needs while she's sick I would be by her side whenever I can my brain turns to mush but I don't care I love her everyday my love meter goes higher and higher it has no limit while you and only you fall and bring her down not realising the true beauty that stands in front of you the way her eyes look around the room the way she walks like she's a kid the way she talks is yet funny but I love it and you look at her like she's garbage like she is the dirt beneath your feet well in fact she isn't she is the most wonderful thing in the world an absolute beaut yet so cute I sometimes wonder how I got so lucky although we have our little fights we still love each other in the end so if you say you love this girl you better think again.


Now as I said don't speak you know you have lost but won't accept defeat now imma tell you one more time if you are going to love a girl like her you must treat her like she's the most special girl in the whole world.
180 · Feb 2018
The Blade of His life
He's done
He's ******* done
He's losing my mind
He's finally done it
He has been broken to complete sadness
He has heard the voices screaming louder and louder
And here they are screaming in their highest pitch
He wants to take the knife that has made him bleed and cause not pain and misery
For it has made him fall to his knees and made him scream out in mercy
As he cut his wrist he feels it bleed it makes him scream in agony
Makes him cry makes him fall makes him want to punch a wall
But it makes him see what a terrible human being he can be
A killer in the night who doesn't care for his life
He wants to end it all right here but the one he loves has drawn near
And she made here acquaintance as she said hi almost made him want to die
For his soul and hers was meant to keep him together
But now they are no longer and now his mind will always be known as the terror of the night
And yes today he still holds that knife trying to ponder about his life.
But just to realized he has lost the one that he still loves soknife he may contemplate we all feel he will be okay but some just don't know the pain he has been through
For he is the one who may help all but can't help himself...
...for the only thing lies on the blade of his life.
179 · Mar 2018
Just keep going
I look at life with a smile on my face while deep down I'm so ******* depressed that I see life going down hill love is growing and depression is fading but the only thing I have to do is just keep going

But yes as that love grows and that depression sinks the people who look at me judge more but i don't care because truth be told is that I love you and when they tell me to leave I'm gonna get hurt I just keep going

To those who look and tell me to leave ******* because you don't know if our love is true well guess what we do so when you try to put me down I'll onto you no I don't look to you I look to her the one I love the one who keeps me in my good day the one reason I just keep going

Before I met her I had taken my blade that made me bleed and stuck it in my vein although it may not sound true it was I hid it well and to see that to I knew my angel was about to come to so I looked to her and I just kept going

And if you need to complain do it to me because as you see I'm not mean I am nice but sometimes when you see me the smile on my face is sometimes fake but not with her that is real that is one thing that kept me safe that is why I just keep going

Now tell me do I look like the freak you call me behind my back? Am I the one who is stupid to you? Well guess what...

...do I look like I care? **** no I don't care for you I care for one thing and that one thing is her and if you try to take her away I will go back to my blade go back to that hidden facade that I once knew and that facade is the thing that just won't keep me going
176 · Feb 2018
My One Love Song
Before you came along life was so much harder.
Life was darker.
I was once so smart
But you have came and took my heart

For you are my future
I would never hurt you
For you are a true beaut
For you are my one and only truth

But ill say i have lied
For  you have raised my pride
And you have made me strive
For I wish not to die but live a long life

Most boys think of *** but not me
I am here to go and set you free
And have you be who you wanna be
I want you to be with me

For you have true beauty
Sod your eyes show true
For you are super cute
I only speak the truth

Cause I love you
And I hope you feel this way too
For day in and day out I'm okay
For your the one who makes my day

You are very special to me
For my love was once free
Until I met you and now its for you
For your my muse

And I need to be honest
Your my true wish
My one and only love
My one missing glove
My one love song
172 · Feb 2018
The Questionable
Did you know one thing gives you away?

That one thing is your eyes
They tell truths and they tell lies
For they show you the times
That you need to be prime

How long have you been here for?

13 years
It must bring you to constant tears
To see you life fade and disappear
For you are strong to hide your fears

If you had to choose would you still live today?

I hope so cause I need you so
For you may be the only who knows
It is I who loves you so
I hope this feeling never goes

Do you love me back?

I hope you do but its your choice
I wish to be quiet and not make much noise
For me when I'm around you I feel like a toy
But to be honest I'm no man I'm just a boy

If you could spend your life with me would you?

Maybe big questions to ask
But some may be my last
But my time with you has been a blast
I will be honest my heart is glass

Will you answer these truthfully?

Or will you leave them as a mystery
And hope to leave my soul as empty
For you don't know how happy you've made me
For I know how much you truly love me.

Do you think I feel the same way?

My honest answer is yes
I wish to be by your side when they put us to rest
But my life before I met you was a mess
For I think and feel you are the best
And I will answer yes for I want you to be my final request.
167 · Apr 2018
Just kept going
I look at life with a smile on my face while deep down I'm so ******* depressed that I see life going down hill love is growing and depression is fading but the only thing I have to do is just keep going

But yes as that love grows and that depression sinks the people who look at me judge more but i don't care because truth be told is that I love you and when they tell me to leave I'm gonna get hurt I just keep going

To those who look and tell me to leave ******* because you don't know if our love is true well guess what we do so when you try to put me down I'll onto you no I don't look to you I look to her the one I love the one who keeps me in my good day the one reason I just keep going

Before I met her I had taken my blade that made me bleed and stuck it in my vein although it may not sound true it was I hid it well and to see that to I knew my angel was about to come to so I looked to her and I just kept going

And if you need to complain do it to me because as you see I'm not mean I am nice but sometimes when you see me the smile on my face is sometimes fake but not with her that is real that is one thing that kept me safe that is why I just keep going

Now tell me do I look like the freak you call me behind my back? Am I the one who is stupid to you? Well guess what...

...do I look like I care? **** no I don't care for you I care for one thing and that one thing is her and if you try to take her away I will go back to my blade go back to that hidden facade that I once knew and that facade is the thing that just won't keep me going

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