I hate you more than anything
more than I hate myself
and it's all your fault

You trap me in a box
but I can't breath or see
You scare me
**** it
you TERRIFY me

It's like drowning
but I can see everyone around me
breathing

As much as I hate you
I love you
because
you were there to hold me
when nobody else would

I have one more thing to say to you
*******
You take everything I love away from me
except my true friends
who aren't afraid of you
I don't mind anymore

But recently you took away the one person I love the most
call him what you want
I could care less
Carberry
Cranberry
or simply
Quinn
and that is why I say such awful things about you.

It’s okay….
I'm just tired.
T-Torn
     I-Insecure
    R-Ruined
         E-Emotional
        D-Depressed
No amount of sleep can get rid of the tiredness I feel.
I’m really happy.
   H-Hiding
     A-Anxious
         P-Pretending
  P-Pained
     Y-Yearning
My smiles are faker than the popular kids
When people try to ask what’s wrong and I tell them, it makes me feel selfish.
           S-Self centered
       E-Emotional
L-Low
F-Fake
       I-Intolerant
       S-Shameful
      H-Horrible
All my friends look so perfect in my eyes
          E-Encouraging
     M-Marvelous
       M-Magnificent
       A-Astonishing
Emma
   
 Q-Quirky
    U-Unique
      I-Incredible
N-Nice
N-Neat­
Quinn  
  
     M-Magical
                E-Extraordinary  
    L-Loving
        ­    E-Exceptional
Mele
    
    L-Loyal
             E-Empathetic
         A-Amazing
       R-Radiant
            S-Supportive
        I-Inspiring
And Learsi
I want to be as selfless and amazing as them but this thing inside my head says I’m not good enough to be.
   J-Jealous
          O-Obnoxious
     C-Clumsy
           E-Exhausting
L-Liar
      Y-Yielding
        N-Nuisance
These are more than just words.
j.b

Is it just me
or is the rain amazing
I wish we got more here

I love the rain because even though it makes you cold and wet
It feels comforting and warm, like a blanket
The rain also gives of a happily depressing feeling
It's beautiful

As the rain drips down my face
I cry
because the rain is like a friend
you can share your secrets and sadness with it
and it won't tell anyone

When I go inside I lift my blinds
get in my pj's
get a fuzzy blanket
make hot chocolate
and listen to the pitter pat on my window

Rain I love you

We’re all as bad as we can be
We’re all as rebellious as hell
We’re all bullies

We all sneak out to smoke and do drugs
Even though we only 13
Even though just last year we were still in the same middle school
Even though we are still surrounded by the same people

All of us end up having bigger demons then  last year
Most of us are living ticking timebombs on the verge of suicide
Most of us are terrified of the future and will do anything to get away from that

We all yearn to go back to the time when we could just play hangman
Most can’t play hangman because we know hangman is the perfect example of if you say the wrong thing you can end someone’s life

We’re not all bad on purpose some of us are just
b  r  o  k  e  n

The night is so beautiful,
the stars shine so bright

They make me so happy.

Lying down and looking at the space over you
not knowing what they mean or are.

Getting up and looking over the cliff
wonder what would happen if you jumped,
but then the moon tells you that you're important

So you go back to your car
and go home
       j.b