Jocelyn

Jocelyn Jul 2018

The silence is suffocating
the demons sneak in through the silence
they scream that I'm
W  o  r  t  h  l  e  s  s
S  e  l  f  i  s  h
N  u  i  s  a  n  c  e
N  O  T  H  I  N  G

Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
SHUT UP, SHUT UP
S  H  U  T    U  P

But I stay quiet
even in the most painful moments

Those moments make me want to
S  C  R  E  A  M
M  Y
G  U  T  S
O  U  T

But again, I just stay
q  u  i  e  t
                 j.b.

Jocelyn Jul 2018

Love

At first I only saw you
You, your brown hair,
your acne covered tan face,
your smile
just as it was

Then more of your personality started to show
and I fell in love you
Your silliness,
your sense of humor,
your sense of fun
But then your image changed to me

I didn't just see you
your smile
your hair
or your face

I saw someone extraordinary
the cutest smile
acne that complements beautiful skin
adorable curly brown hair

But then you said you didn't like me

And that destroys me
but i can't stop loving you

G o d , s t o p l o v i n g h i m
j.b

Jocelyn Jul 2018

More than just words

It’s okay….
I'm just tired.
T-Torn
     I-Insecure
    R-Ruined
         E-Emotional
        D-Depressed
No amount of sleep can get rid of the tiredness I feel.
I’m really happy.
   H-Hiding
     A-Anxious
         P-Pretending
  P-Pained
     Y-Yearning
My smiles are faker than the popular kids
When people try to ask what’s wrong and I tell them, it makes me feel selfish.
           S-Self centered
       E-Emotional
L-Low
F-Fake
       I-Intolerant
       S-Shameful
      H-Horrible
All my friends look so perfect in my eyes
          E-Encouraging
     M-Marvelous
       M-Magnificent
       A-Astonishing
Emma

Q-Quirky
    U-Unique
      I-Incredible
N-Nice
N-Neat
Quinn

     M-Magical
                E-Extraordinary
    L-Loving
            E-Exceptional
Mele

    L-Loyal
             E-Empathetic
         A-Amazing
       R-Radiant
            S-Supportive
        I-Inspiring
And Learsi
I want to be as selfless and amazing as them but this thing inside my head says I’m not good enough to be.
   J-Jealous
          O-Obnoxious
     C-Clumsy
           E-Exhausting
L-Liar
      Y-Yielding
        N-Nuisance
These are more than just words.
j.b

Jocelyn Jul 2018

Tired

The sun shines on my face through the blinds
waking me from my peaceful rest.
But I don't want to get up
I'm just too tired.

I'll wake up around 9 a.m. and just sit there.
It's not because I'm lazy, I'm still just too tired.

                                                        Why are you so tired all the time?

Oh, My depression of course!
You see, my depression weighs me down
and makes everyday so tiring.
Then it bothers me at night, even while I'm sleeping.
My depression makes me tired in the morning to torture me more!
                              j.b.

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