It happens again and again,
Coming in the morning waiting for hell to start
Looking to the weekend
To give a jump to my heart
And every day when I come home
I constantly am in a fight
To tell myself to just wait
For the day I'll never be alone at night
To live every day with a smile on my face
Because I've told you time and again
In my heart and and in my arms you'll always have a place
To spend every day with you
Clutched in my embrace
But it seems like it will never happen
As life drags on at a leisurely pace
Yet in the back of my mind there's a fear
Because no will always be the answer life makes it seem
So every night I lay in bed thinking
And I just silently scream

Sitting in the dark
With not but a melancholy thinking
A spark in his hand, a smoke in the other
All the while, on loneliness, overdosing.
But deep inside there is a single gleam
A light at the end of the tunnel
A bit of overwhelming joy,
What sends his heart into a tumble.
A thought of time to come
And a smile to have.
A time which he holds dear,
And a time in which he can laugh.
To hold one he loves so close,
One who sends joy from head to feet
In a moment can put him to sleep
Or make his heart jump with a kiss so sweet.

The days come to an end
With the sound of thunder above
But the emotions leave not with time,
They can't drown the feeling of love.
To wait what seems like forever,
But in truth is only a short time
To see that one special person,
A girl one of a kind.
And again feel a smile,
That can't be brought on by brothers or sisters,
But it comes back around
Once he's held held her and kissed her.
A joy which is not easy to find,
Which can't be replaced or found in an everyday place,
But like a bird to the warmth,
It finds it's way back to his face.

I love you
not because
you're good looking

I love you
not because
you're caring

I love you
not because
you dote on me

I love you
not because
your smiles are sweet

I love you
not in lust
of your crevice
or orifice
or skin

I love you
because
without you
I feel

incomplete within.

Fate will take a turn they all said
But now he lay with the blood spilt 'round
Wondering if he would finally be dead
If he would finally put himself in the ground
To take such a bright place
But turn it so dark
Something he never expected,
Would tear out his heart
His mind always in a constant race
His body in constant pain,
But what else is there to do
When it only hurts to stay?
When all the things he truly desires
Are all the things that hurt the most?
That push him towards the edge
And put his everything up on a post
To want nothing but to shut his eyes
And finally see it all end
To know that the only way to make it stop
Is to simply be dead
To finally see the rivers run red
And to fall into the eternal sleep
And never again will he feel his own heart
Drive a knife so deep
To live but not love
And never again to laugh
But only take his very soul
And watch it get ripped in half