sitting here once again
numbers running through my brain
thinking
will i fail again

will i be a different person
with a maths degree
no i won,t
i,ll still be me

maybe i,ll be more clever
but will anybody see
that i,m a little bit more cleverer
if  i,ve got a maths degree

i guess what i,m saying
is i was happy with before
and if it was,nt for my advisor
i would,nt have walked through your door

its surprising how the dole
can make us do these actions
by telling us if we don,t
they,ll bury us with sanctions

i actually dream at night
quite often you may know
of walking in the dole
and telling her where to go

so let me win the lottery
i,m praying to my preacher
let me win a mill or two
so i can be the teacher

I,m sitting here wondering
why I ever went to school
cos every course I go on
they treat me like a fool
they ask me easy questions
that my nine year old can do
like three times three
or what is two times two
so was there any point
in learning what I learnt
my gcse passes
might as well be burnt
no offence to my advisor
or the learning concepts staff
but you really got me thinking
someones having a laugh
cos I really aint a fool
I,m a pretty clever bloke
and I,m really wondering
if this all a joke
it makes me feel inadequate
I feel like shouting out
come on Jeremy beadle
its about time you popped out

learning concepts
is the place to be
to do all your courses
or get an up to date c.v
cos some people out there
really want jobs
not everyone on the dole
are all lazy slobs
so what brings me here
working so hard
i want to pass
for a new cscs card
cos my last one ran out
a month or two ago
and i need a new one
to employers to show
cos getting a site job
is really hard
in fact you have,nt got a chance
without a cscs card
so here i sit
put boredom to rest
write for two weeks
and then pass my test
then its thank you learning concepts
then a site job for me
with money in my pockets
and a bit of dignity

Hello peeps
I,m back again
Bathed in sorrow
Swathed in pain
For a while
I was lost
I,m found again
Despite the cost
I lost my pen
Down my settee
When it was gone
I was,not me
But now I,m back
I feel at home
I live to write
Another poem

I looked for the words
I searched high and low
For the words I would say
So you and only you would know
That I loved you so
I love you Clare
But you already know
That's why you ignore me
And tell me to go

We went today
For our gender scan
To find out our babies ***
Hello there little man

Now we saw  you
On the scan
Your no longer an it
Your actually a man

Time to go shopping now
That we know what you are
Little blue jump suits
Little toy car

No pink dresses
Or doll toys for you
Action man figures
And boys toys will do

So hello little Bentley
Hope you like your name
And though your not a girl
We love you just the same

Congrats to my lovely lady Clare
Thanks babes ***

Every man
Has his she
His soulmate
His destiny
Some are lucky
Some are blind
Some will search
But never find
The reason that
We all live
To find a she
Our love to give
I found mine
But did,nt know
That she was she
Till I let her go