I should be happy that you're happy. And believe me I am. Yet I feel the tears spike me every time I look at you or even think. Everything you said to me has no meaning now. Those words once said to me are now being said to her. How am I supposed to feel for anyone when I'm slowly. Feeling. Nothing. How can I be happy for you. Or happy at all.

Call on my demons,
Come out and play.
Sing to me sirens,
Keep me at bay.
I'm lost in it all.
I don't care if I fall.
Take me away.
Don't leave me here.
Fight for me.
Help me overcome this fear.
I just want to be free.
Save me from these voices.
Fend them off.
I don't have that many choices.
Please....
Take me away.

His voice is music to my ears
Without it the silence is deafening
And when the music stops there's nothing to keep me here
No one to untie the rope around my neck
No one to blow out the flame
No one to take the blade away
Cause to everyone else it's all the same
Whether you die tonight or live the next day

There's no place to go.
This isn't hide and seek.
He's killing himself and he's killing me.
I can't get out.
Don't scream or shout.
I'll love you to the end..
Even though you're bringing me down.

I was so blind.
His eyes infecting my thoughts.
Clouding my mind.
After everything that I was taught.
I was stuck here.
Trying to be something that I'm not.
I'm spinning out of control, trying to steer.
Stuck in this endless plot.
I want to tell him, "I love you." No, I want to scream it.
but he's a lost cause and I know it.
Don't get caught up in the moment.
You can love him, just don't show it.